Hi [@leanneT]‍ and [@agapanthus]‍ - I don't know if this will help at all, but in case it does - I just wanted to say hang on in there - there is hope on the other side. I was where you are now back in August and you do get through it. I'm 47 as well, with two early teens. I ended up having a double mastectomy, 11 nodes removed, diep reconstruction and radiotherapy... I read your posts and it brought back all those feelings of anxiety and stress and panic - you don't think you can bear it but you will... you worry about your kids the most I think.
 

The first bit with all the waiting on the MRI/ CT/ bone scans is the worst. Then you get into a one-day-at a time phase, keep putting one foot in front of the other and somehow you come out the other side. The further along you go the easier it gets. Once you get a surgery date you have a focus and that really helps because you can plan. I wish I could find some words to help... I remember needing them myself but in reality only time will help. Best of luck and big hugs to you both xx

Hi [@leanneT]‍ and [@agapanthus]‍ - I don't know if this will help at all, but in case it does - I just wanted to say hang on in there - there is hope on the other side. I was where you are now back in August and you do get through it. I'm 47 as well, with two early teens. I ended up having a double mastectomy, 11 nodes removed, diep reconstruction and radiotherapy... I read your posts and it brought back all those feelings of anxiety and stress and panic - you don't think you can bear it but you will... you worry about your kids the most I think.
 

The first bit with all the waiting on the MRI/ CT/ bone scans is the worst. Then you get into a one-day-at a time phase, keep putting one foot in front of the other and somehow you come out the other side. The further along you go the easier it gets. Once you get a surgery date you have a focus and that really helps because you can plan. I wish I could find some words to help... I remember needing them myself but in reality only time will help. Best of luck and big hugs to you both xx

Thanks for all the information you have given me and yes I'm worried about my girls the most as I lost both my parents a very long time ago and can't even imagine them being without me. It's nice to hear from others in my situation as this helps me the most as I can't really speak my fears to my family as they normally look to me for strength.

Thanks so much for your help and hope your doing better xx

Thank you xx