Sorry to hear that. I do understand your head will be all over the place and it's this current time that's the most difficult mentally because no one knows anything.

What I will say, once you get the biopsies, then the scan results and know exactly what you're dealing with, things will get easier mentally. More so when a treatment plan is in place. I know that's difficult to fathom at this moment in time, but it will get better.

Wish i had some great advice on how to distract yourself, but other than keeping busy there is no magic bullet. It sucks. But do know, things will calm down. Just don't go writing yourself off and having yourself dead and buried. But we all do it in these times. I wish you the best of luck on your journey.

PS Keep away from google. It doesn't have the answers you are currently seeking. Just worst case scenarios.

Thanks for your reply I'm just going out of my mind and waiting for my biopsy results every hour seems like a week .....I've had 2 lots of scans and ultrasound scans too..life can be so cruel can't it xx

Hi,

im in the same position. 2 boys gcse and alevels. I'm 46 and was told on Tuesday I have invasive ductal carcinoma. I'm waiting for MRI and lymph node biopsy to confirm treatment. The wait is excruciating. Inside I want to scream. I think of every scenario and it scares the crap out of me. Nights are worse. But I keep busy in the day. I'm grateful it's been found and it can be dealt with and I'm going to fight this. Be strong. Xx

I'm 47 and feel exactly the same as can't sleep much either ..I know we have to be strong but I feel like so weak and helpless . Xxx

Good luck Hun and big hug from me x

You too. xxx

Hi [@leanneT]‍ and [@agapanthus]‍ - I don't know if this will help at all, but in case it does - I just wanted to say hang on in there - there is hope on the other side. I was where you are now back in August and you do get through it. I'm 47 as well, with two early teens. I ended up having a double mastectomy, 11 nodes removed, diep reconstruction and radiotherapy... I read your posts and it brought back all those feelings of anxiety and stress and panic - you don't think you can bear it but you will... you worry about your kids the most I think.
 

The first bit with all the waiting on the MRI/ CT/ bone scans is the worst. Then you get into a one-day-at a time phase, keep putting one foot in front of the other and somehow you come out the other side. The further along you go the easier it gets. Once you get a surgery date you have a focus and that really helps because you can plan. I wish I could find some words to help... I remember needing them myself but in reality only time will help. Best of luck and big hugs to you both xx

Thanks for all the information you have given me and yes I'm worried about my girls the most as I lost both my parents a very long time ago and can't even imagine them being without me. It's nice to hear from others in my situation as this helps me the most as I can't really speak my fears to my family as they normally look to me for strength.

Thanks so much for your help and hope your doing better xx

Dear Leanne,

I am sorry too meet you here, I haven't been on the forum for a while but read your post and needed to reply. 
 

im 38 with two young sons, I went to the Clinic on my own as the GP didn't seem concerned, on the day of my appointment I was also told I had breast cancer, it was like an outer body experience my legs just went from underneath me and I instantly thought I would die. Our bodies go into fight or flight mode I was in flight mode that day.

That week waiting for results was the worst I had felt, I sat up all night thinking through every worded Scinario I could think of,,  When the day came that my husband and I went to the hospital although I was scared I had been to so many dark places I was actually relieved that I knew what we were dealing with. 
When you go for your results they will be able to tell you what BC you have and how they wil treat it, you might have some Scans which again will be hard mentally but they will need to get the whole picture.

You team will have a plan and will treat this and you will be fine.  Treatments are so advanced, you found it and your sorting it out.

reach out too people on here like you have, there are a lot of us on here that have been through it, and can help as much as we can. 
 

i have since had my T removed and have started Chemo. 
 

Lots of love x