Oh Jules forgive my post on my site to you .....I am so sorry not to have known of your hubbies departure.  You know from the support you have given me how well I understand your current situation and my heart goes out to you.  My site tells of my joirney through this uncharted place you find yourself in.  It is difficult but you will come through.

All my thoughts and a big virtual hug

Ian x

Hi Ian

Just lovely to see your name appear on my thread and suspect its just as hard for you to post but I really appreciate the message.  It was a long three years for hubby and I take much comfort in the fact that he is now free from the clutches of his disease which took his happiness away.  I am surrounded by the love of my family and friends (and the ongoing support of virtuality buddies) and now, like you, my life must be lived to the best of my ability. Early days still but so many memories to cherish and share with others - a few late nights of 'story-telling' along the way.

Sending hugs and best wishes and hope all is well with you and Julie in your new life.  Jules x

Good morning Jules,

Sorry have been absent for a day or so but have been so busy. Monday I was out to my three hour cancer meeting to do with the new Macmillan Horizon Centre being built in Brighton. As my car was problematical I went by bus so was out for nearly six hours. But well worth while. I also found out my PSA has only risen slightly during the past six months. It still only 0.89 which is very good. Funny thing was when I was at the cancer meeting I met my oncologist who recognised me and asked how I was, so was able to update him.

Yesterday got my car fixed; it was a sensor that was the problem. Cost me a fair bit but needed to get it fixed. Did more walking than I have done for ages and when I finally got home felt absolutely done in. So today I am playing catch up and taking things easy.

Sounds like you have a lot going on today, with visit by internet people, washing machien delivery, and little Zack to have fun with as well. I was sorry to hear you got upset when the car was taken away but can well understand it for it's another little bit of the past you shared with your hubby and probably have happy memories of trips out you had together in the car. I hope your meeting went well yesterday with social services regarding your mother.

While walking around the shops yesterday killing time while they ran diagnostics on my car, I found a lovely owl cushion which was the last one they had so bought it for Mrs B who was very pleased with it. My nut shop was closed as they are moving round the corner so wasnt able to buy any nuts.

Well I have rambled enough for today. Take care Jules, Best wishes and kind thoughts being sent your way, Brian.

Good evening Garf

Well, its been quite a day. Both engineer and washer/dryer were booked for a.m.delivery -both turned up at 2.30ish!!!! (just as well it was pouring with rain and I did not want/need to go out.  Washing machine now in situ and once I have read the booklet will set to work!  The internet has been temporarily re-vamped on old router but new router required. Engineer was here two hours as the new router he had with him just would not work with old settings - nothing is ever straightforward these days.  Now need another engineer to come out who apparently will bring all network info with him (to be honest its all beyond me but hubby never shared his password (why would he when you are supposed to protect it!!).  Anyway for now its fingers crossed.

On the plus side the legalities regarding registration of hubby's death have been  partially rectified so we can move forward with new death certificate once they are sent out (you could not write a book about the problems two 'professionals' have caused- though perhaps I should ha ha).  Time for formal complaint will be later as no one should have had to go through the added stress this has brought to the family.

Zack has been a little treasure today and is now tucked up and fast asleep and will be picked up tomorrow after elder brother has been dropped to school. His hospital appointment was inconclusive as he did not 'rock' during the sleep clinic but was rather upset by it all - am sure dinner out with Mum and Dad will help!

Hope Mother in Law was happy with the coffee table and that you get safe delivery of new furniture on Friday - seems like a good Spring Clean is afoot in your place and am sure your and Mrs G will be very pleased once its complete.

Well whilst a little peace is available I will put my meal on and try and catch up with other mail.

Take care and try and get a bit of R&R before your return to work.  Hugs  Jules

Hi Kathy

Washer dryer in and ready to go (when I have read the blurb that goes with it!!).  Interenet has temporary repar until new router with different engineer comes out (the joys of switching from hubby's name has lead to password issues like you would not believe but at least I have access at present.).  Both appointments booked for am, both arrived after 2 pm but as I had Zack to keep me amused no real problem.

Hope to have appointed probate solicitors by end of week but still plenty of stuff to keep me amused (not sure where I will find the time to return to work but am going back on Monday anyhow).  Glad you are also beginning to get somewhere with the legal side of things too.  I am actually Executor for hubby but plan on passing the buck so to speak as really do not need the added stress of doing all the running around.  With hopefully all the necessary boxes ticked now, we are able to move forward a little more.

The little ones certainly never fail to bring smiles and Zack has been as good as gold today and is now tucked up in bed and I am planning my evening meal in peace (hope I have not spoken too soon ha ha).

Take care forum friend.Hugs across the miles  Jules

Hi Brian

No apologies needed as you certainly carrying out good work with regards to cancer charity and it was nice that you saw your own oncologist and were able to tell him your good PSA news.  Am sure you and he were delighted with latest results.

Mrs B is turning into an owl sanctuary for 'all things related' but bet she was chufffed to bits with the new cushion.  I am planning on re-adopting Cobweb in memory of hubby in April so our 'adoption' will continue.

At the local market a couple of weeks ago they had a display of owls from local sanctuary and was happy to donate to such a good cause.  They are beautiful to look at and bring enormous pleasure to their carers as well as those in the wild.

Well feeling pretty jaded now so will get away to a meal and maybe an early night.

Kind thoughts and peace sent back to you and MrsB. Jules

 Sorry my PC crashed so out of touch will now get back in touch take care kind regards george .

Hi George

Technology is great when its working.  Hope your PC stays fixed for you.  I too have been having issues with the internet, one engineer down, one to go!!

Do hope your doctor has been able to help with your pain and that you are more comfortable. I expect Ria is keeping you company along the way. Take good care.  Jules x

Good morning Jules,

Sorry I haven't been around much this last week. We have been empty with the cottages but busy with all the catch up things we have to do when we are empty. Now this morning we have 6 inches of snow and my husband is outside clearing it away in order to get the car out in the hopes of getting into town for his gp appointment and one or two comestubles. 

I hope you are well and managing to fit in the reflecting moments for yourself within the company of visits from friends and family. So glad you got yourself a new washing machine and hope its working well. At least if you get snow like we have you don't have to worry about going out with the laundry. One day we might be able to pm again and I look forward to that oppotunity. 

Sending lots of hugs 

Annabel. xx

Hi Annabel

Lovely to see your name crop up and hope your husband got the car out and managed his appointment and necessary supplies for the 'snow in'.  None of the white stuff in our neck of the woods so far, though was bitterly cold (windy too) when we took Zack out this morning.

Have not yet had the washing machine on (still need to read the instructions and will wait for a 'full load' !!). Another telephone engineer (trying to sort out intermittent Broadband - grrr) due tomorrow p.m, so will try and catch up with more paperwork(photocopying documents) whilst I am waiting.  Have now appointed legal representatives to deal with Probate (will be glad to hand it all over to professionals) and am back to work on Monday  so some sort of normal can be found. This coming weekend is, hopefully, to be a relaxing one (do possibly have builder coming to secure back of garden (broken fencing to become a wall) and then can rest a little easier security wise.

How are you keeping?  Hope little Ava doing well and your daughter enjoying being back at work.  Expect you will be getting cottages filled up again soon with half term hols and Easter just around the corner.  I am joining daughter and family for five days away in Dorset (holiday caravan park with all the necessary entertainment for the kiddies (big and small ha ha) beginning Easter Monday (we return just in time for son in law's birthday). Take care my virtual buddy. Peaceful thoughts and hugs coming your way. Jules x

I am glad you are busy and you got the legal stuff out of your hair, Well, no snow down here either - but its is nippy cold. Thinking about gardens already? Good luck on the back fence. There will be more strong winds coming along I am sure. We are okay - skittery about next week - but in my heart I think it will okay. Mum still plods along. I did a little video for us all of her singing. I am simply tired out - but tired out!!!

take care xx steven

I am glad you are busy and you got the legal stuff out of your hair, Well, no snow down here either - but its is nippy cold. Thinking about gardens already? Good luck on the back fence. There will be more strong winds coming along I am sure. We are okay - skittery about next week - but in my heart I think it will okay. Mum still plods along. I did a little video for us all of her singing. I am simply tired out - but tired out!!!

take care xx steven

Hi Steven

The back fence has been a disgrace for some time but other things understandably were coming first.  Now I need to get things in order.  Day to day stuff does not go away!! 

Upcoming appointments (and the waiting for them) always bring stress along with them and I do hope all will be well. 

New set of forms to fill in, this time for Mum's care needs.  Should be easier this time (went through it all just over a year ago so at least I know what I am facing).

Hope you and Anne have a peaceful weekend. Jules x