Hi if your feeling frightend and stressed ring the Samaritans they are there for everyone .they are great the number is 116123 they can listen they are not just for suicidal people just ring and say hello i need help you may get one you cant relate to so say thak you and ring again they are there 24 hours a day and its a free call .Next tommow find the number of you local hospic they are not there just for termily ill people they can arrange all sorts of counciling and may be able to point you to the right people to help you with your kiddies just ring tell them how things are and you need help i cant imagin how you are feeling .it must be awfull but sympathy is nice but it dosent help in your position hope ive helped in some way someone will maybe pop up on here with better advice but hospices have teams that come out .but you have to ask because how will anyone know best wishs paul

Hi if your feeling frightend and stressed ring the Samaritans they are there for everyone .they are great the number is 116123 they can listen they are not just for suicidal people just ring and say hello i need help you may get one you cant relate to so say thak you and ring again they are there 24 hours a day and its a free call .Next tommow find the number of you local hospic they are not there just for termily ill people they can arrange all sorts of counciling and may be able to point you to the right people to help you with your kiddies just ring tell them how things are and you need help i cant imagin how you are feeling .it must be awfull but sympathy is nice but it dosent help in your position hope ive helped in some way someone will maybe pop up on here with better advice but hospices have teams that come out .but you have to ask because how will anyone know best wishs paul

Hi Paul. 

Thanks for the advice, would never have thought about going down that road. I'm learning that I have to ask and stop putting a stupid grin on my face and think everything will be fine. 

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Dont pretend your not hurting as how does yourfamile know look on internet about how to treat people in your position and let them read it the other peace of advice and it so important is drink lots of fluids i tell everyone now vitamin c and there are suplements look for antioxidants read about free radicals and how they effect your body then make your own judgements turmeric is popular suplement read about that thousands say it helps some say it doesnt but ask your dr if its ok to use i think a few suffers will drop bye and give you there oppinions if you post it ask [@Chriss]‍ she will along shortly a lovely lady .hope you can get some help you sound truely worried to say the least and you do have my upmost sympathys  your family are probably at a loss what to do or say best it not somthingspeople have to deal with its not like a cold best wishs to you regards paul ps and dont drink it dehydrates you 

Thanks Paul. 

Sorry for the late reply.

Thanks for the guidance, I'll look into some things and see what I can find.

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Thats ok when your worried we panic and dont tend to thing practicaly ive been widowed since 29th april and have been half bonkers but i went out and asked for help from hospice and they were very helpful dont know where your from as was talking to a lady from canada but lots of kind people out there and on here  to .best wishs