Had really bad news today. I have extensive spread in nodes and the cancer has also metastasized to my brain. Gosh this is scary - hubby and I are numb! X
Hi Bill ......... How fabulous to hear from you, I often wonder how you are!!! Thank you for your kind words, it was such a shock to receive this news back at the end of last year but I have come to terms with things a lot more since that time. In February I had cyberknife treatment to the brain tumour and time will tell if it has ablated it. The scans cannot differentiate between dead tissue and a tumour apparently but the brain swelling had gone, plus the area was no bigger, so the surgeon is hoping that is a good indication at this early stage. I feel a lot better too which is also a good indication - conversing verbally was becoming quite difficult, as was dealing with noise generally. I am now due to have more treatment on 2 liver tumours - so I am hanging on in there and still having the chemo, generally I feel okay which is good.
Life must have been pretty difficult for you and your family since losing dear Carrie. How are you doing Bill and how are the family and grandchildren coping? Cant tell you how pleased I am to hear from you - and just wish they still had the private messaging facility on the site, a lot of us miss it! Take good care of yourself my friend x
To me Max you truly are in every word a inspiration to me and I believe so many others on this site and wish you only the happiness and good health you truly deserve. I am as you enquire still very raw as far as emotions and have good days and bad days but in general I have survived as they say.The grandchildren are doing ok Max under the circumstances and their has been no disruptions in their school life etc which I was worried about in truth.My life has changed forever Max but I am so thankful Carrie was part of my life and the time we shared together when here as those sentiments are shared by so many others who have lost a loved one.I will speak with you again Max and like yourself have had you in my thoughts and will continue to do so.
After all you have been through - I think inspirational sums you up pretty well Bill! I am so glad you have 'survived' as you say and can only imagine how difficult it must be to adapt to your 'new normal'. I too am glad the children have coped well and it must be wonderful to be with them knowing that they are a part of Carrie. To hear you are having good days as well as bad is a comfort to me Bill and you know that I and many others here send you much love and strength to help you cope over the years to come. Drop in now and again to say Hi - and take good care x
