hi

    you do need all the support. my mum passed away with lung cancer caused by smoking. when we found out it woz too late. she gave up smoking. a few days later she said she need a smoke. i told her to have 1 cause the damage is done. i stopped smoking myself. but when they told me the end 4 mum woz only days. i said if some1 dont give me a smoke i going to hit that doc lol. thank god some1 had some on them. i will pack in again. but mum woz doing what she like to the end. she never drank tho. you do what makes you feel better. i think no 1 is put on this earth to judge so should not be judged by others xxxx

Thank you for your continued responses. Do you know what is so bad, is that I am a trained nurse! I recruit them now and so don't actually have clinical skills anymore, but even so... how bad is that?! I  Everyone here are all incredibly kind and non judgemental and that's so good to hear, but I know it doesn't exonerate me. Let's face it, having/had cancer and smoking doesn't actually endear one to the person! It's like being pregnant and smoking - just not on. I remember seeing this documentary about someone with throat cancer I think and they had this tracheotomy to help them, and (this is bad!), were actually smoking a cigarette through the tracheostomy! OMG. I actually don't think my bowel cancer was due to smoking as I have a family history, but even so, not good. I guess just wanted a kindred spirit to come on and say they do too to make me feel better! This new throat cancer scare has set me off and made me smoke even more. So stupid. Anyway just want to keep the thread going and welcome anyone with views. Love Julie xxx

Thank you for your continued responses. Do you know what is so bad, is that I am a trained nurse! I recruit them now and so don't actually have clinical skills anymore, but even so... how bad is that?! I  Everyone here are all incredibly kind and non judgemental and that's so good to hear, but I know it doesn't exonerate me. Let's face it, having/had cancer and smoking doesn't actually endear one to the person! It's like being pregnant and smoking - just not on. I remember seeing this documentary about someone with throat cancer I think and they had this tracheotomy to help them, and (this is bad!), were actually smoking a cigarette through the tracheostomy! OMG. I actually don't think my bowel cancer was due to smoking as I have a family history, but even so, not good. I guess just wanted a kindred spirit to come on and say they do too to make me feel better! This new throat cancer scare has set me off and made me smoke even more. So stupid. Anyway just want to keep the thread going and welcome anyone with views. Love Julie xxx

Hi Julie

I'm glad you started up this thread as I always worry about having a glass (or 3) of wine but didn't want to start up a discussion as I didn't want anyone to think I have a drink problem!  I never smoked and yet ended up with a throat cancer (larynx).  I know there is a lot of emphasis about not smoking or drinking as it can cause cancer but my consultant told me if it's in your genes there's not much you can do about that.

I  used to love going out and socialising with friends but now if I've had more than 2 glasses of wine I worry that I've put myself at risk.  I know some people will say if you worry about it then don't do it but it's not much fun sitting in a pub drinking water - I don't even like soft drinks!  

Moderation is the key I suppose but it's nice to have some normality back in your life.

I hope everything is OK with your throat, everyone gets sore throats and a husky voice from time to time but it's so easy to jump to conclusions when you've had cancer.  Have you had your appointment through yet?

Try not to worry

Love Marion x

hi julie

we all need support,its just some need more than others,and i myself could still have a cigarette even after years without one,so don`t give yourself such a hard time,as marion said,moderation is the key,so take care.

  jeff x