hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
Stop appologising,you were one of the first people to support me on here and its not how often you come here just as long as you do !
Not good news but dont forget the wonderful things happening with these chemos now..On Ovarian cancer Dot had the wonderful news before Christmas that the mets to her lung has gone with her latest chemo so a new blast may be what you need to zap this thing.Not what you want but hopefully the end result will be worth it.You have been through so much I kinow more treatment is daunting but You WILL DO THIS.What chemo will you be on?
Wonderful news about the proposal,thank goodness for these fellas even though we give them a hard time sometimes.
Let us know how thing are and all the luck in the world to you and your lovely family.
like rose said there is no need to apologise cos i am sure you have helped many people on this site and we all need a little time out so dont worry about it and i am sure your positiveness will return, that was a nice touch from nigel with the dog and i bet there wasnt a dry eye in the house so i hope you have a great future together and it just the inspiration you need so once again good luck to you all.
oh lou im so sorry to hear your news. something so nice happens n then this brings back all the worry again. im glad the tablet form wont make you as bad as the other chemo. but so unfair you have to go through it again. you will have to let us know how long you will have to take it for n how it makes you feel. will you keep your hair this time? im so sorry. good luck starting your new treatment, am sure we all will be thinking of you n wishing you well. congratulations to you n yours, really do wish you all the very best.
can only imagine how you must be feeling. im so sorry he has treated you this way n at a time when you feel so alone anyway. some people are so selfish n to tell you what he did is so awful. as if you needed any more guilt about getting ill n anymore pain to go through. i hope your councillor is a good one n helps you put your life back in perspective. we will be there for all the other times. wishing away some of your pain n sending you some proper, heart felt love to you n your daughter. as for 'it', what comes around goes around n i hope you will be strong enough to tell him to get lost when it does.
Hope this finds you all well and in good spirits. Well as you all know I have now finished my treatment but I always keep up to date on the chat.
Firstly I would like to talk to Caroline as I have been where you are, I found out a month after my operation that my husband had been playing away from home, he tried to deny it but he was caught red handed so he moved out, we were trying to sort things out until the day I went on a weeks holiday with my sister's he moved in with her and all I got was phone calls, texting etc, It got so bad I had to involve the police in the end, who charged her with harrassment as I was recieving really abusive texts i.e I hope you die from cancer etc etc, so I do understand. I must say this was going on whilst I was having chemo. All I will say to you is time is a great healer you may not think it now as I didnt but you do find the strength from somewhere and learn to lean on your family and friends a bit more they will understand believe me. Caroline if you would like to talk privately please let me know and I will give you my e-mail address. I am sending you one almighty hug as I know you need it and keep your chin up.
Tony how are things with you, I always seem to miss you when I am on line, what have you been up to.
I have an appointment on the 28th (2 weeks tomorrow) with my oncologist, a follow up after all my treatment but I am going to ask him for a scan as I would like to know that I have got rid of the horrible thing, but I must say it's the best I have felt in a very long time. Did you all have scans after your treatment finished as I am unsure what should be happening now.
Hi Littelsis, nice to see you back, I too have just finished my treatment on monday past, 6 fec and 6 weeks of radio, just waiting on oncologist appt. I dont know about where you are, but ive been told you dont have a scan, as when i had lumpectomy they have removed the cancer the treatment is precautionary measure, they usually only scan if they havent operated first, its just check ups with oncologist, breast doctor and mammograms, I found this hard to comprehend but thats the way it works, i was told if i wanted a scan i would need to go privately, hopefully the chemo has killed off any wee cancerous cells that were floating about. Hope this helps. Colette x
I do read all messages even though I don't send anything usually. I completely understand about wanting a scan. I finished my radiotherapy recently following a lumpectomay a mastectomy 6 months of TAC and 3 weeks radiotherapy. I read an awful lot on the internet comcerning my particular breast cancer ( lobular 111A). In America ir seems common practice for breast cancer patients to have a PET scan at the end of their treatment. I discussed this with a nurse who came to my home to give the chemo (so lucky this service available). She told me to 'go for it'. I must admit I am not the easiest of patients and made quite a deal of this at oncology. Anyway the outcome was I had the PET scan which not only shows up tumours but highlights any 'hotspots'. The downside is there is a high incidence of 'false positives'. I told the oncologist that I was happy to take that risk. Anyway I finally had the scan and was recently given the results - all clear! Now I know this is no guarentee that the cancer won't come back but at least I feel a bit more positive going forward. I would say to anyone that feels as I did to make sure you try any way you can to get the scan your 'mental' state needs - never mind your body!
Good luck and all the best to every person on this site
Caroline, cant say anything that will take away your pain or feelings of betrayal...I am just remembering the fighter that first came on to this site and the one that has battled through whatever has been thrown at you (which has been alot). Cancer on its own is enough, breakdown of a relationship is enough, the two together will feel like a mountain that you just cannot climb....however do what you need to do to get through this, easy for all of us to *** off your partner and so easy for me to send the boys round but that will not get YOU through this...Caroline not much I can say so will send you a big Tony bear hug, just for you <<<<HUG>>>>.
Linda, I am doing okay...went back down that dark tunnel and the evil irene (Irinotecan) and Avastin mix is giving me all sorts of problems but hey when life gives you lemons....
Jan, absolutely 100% true, be an official nuisance to get that scan then you have all the facts - WELL DONE FOR THE RESULTS SO FAR!!!
There is so much i would like to say having caught up on the posts, but i would only ramble.
Caz, I know right now life seems a ***, but please believe that it is true, that only can you move forward when the cr*p is out of your life. we have to go through the sh*t to reach the other side, and you must allow yourself time to grieve, be angry and let all those horrible emotions shine on through. These are part of the healing process. These things make you stronger, more aware of things and will eventually lead to a completely new and different life. I know this because i have been there. And someone once said to me, there is nota better hand to take than that of someone who has been there. Through each experience we learn and are able to help others. It may seem little consolation, but to the person who needs understanding and a hug, it can mean the world. It is true some people cannot handle the range of emotions and effects of this horrid disease, especailly as we seem to lose our sexuality because we feel so mixed up, scarred, hair loss and so on and so on. However, there are always people who are not afraid of the superficial, not afraid of what life throws at them and these are the people we should surround ourselves with. I can more than understand where you are coming from and hope that you will come here more often and rant and rave, cry and scream and know that we are ALL here for you. It seems like a long road you have to go down, but the others here are so right when they say suddenly it happens quickly and you wonder where the time went. Take one day at a time and give yourself short term goals for where you want to be in a month, two months, and do the things you always thought you never had time for. Join a dating site just for fun - see how many people you can make friends with- it is the inner person that counts and i am only just learning that. I know you might feel not up to it, but you know I can tell you from expereince, most of what you have lost is confidence and the only way to regain it is to take it by the horns and ride the bull so to speak. Take control of the things you can - like making new friends, letting people flirt with you - the real you - not the one who worries about her boobs and a shallow ex, but the warm crazy funny beautiful and supportive Caz that I have come to know on here. take up a new hobby, do everything you can to completely change your routine.
sending you two arms to hold you tight and give you strength.
Hi Colly, your treatment seems to have flown by. I hope you are feeling okay, the worst is over so roll on the spring! You have been a god send to me with your advice! xx
