hi im 36 mother of 3 n diagnosed dec 23. ive had 2 ops n 5 of 6 chemo n finding it very hard at mo. feel so peed off n cant get rid of that feeling. would love to chat. x
Sorry it's a bit late in the day but have managed to get to a computer whilst on holiday and had to get a message to you to say that I am thinking of you at this time.
It is understanable that you are having a wobble! who wouldn't, your daughter is going off to uni this weekend and then you start treatment. It is a very emotional time when your children leave home and it is like a new chapter in your life has just began. Your daughter will be fine and I am sure once she has settled in at Uni you can start to concentrate on you. I know when my son went to uni I cried for a week before he went, that is a mother for you! I miss him now and he lives in Hong Kong! Skype and emeil are marvellous ways of keeping in touch and then the miles do not seem so far.
We all worry about our kids and husbands but keep talking and telling them that although you are not going to feel and look great for a few months it is to benefit you and them in the long term.
Good luck for Monday and ask any questions you want about the treatment.
Thank you for your support. The one thing that i dont like is needles!!!!!!! im ok with blood taken, but the one in the back of the hand is something i really dont like and that is what im having tomorrow!.can you tell me if this is what you had? x regards dizzy.
Good luck tomorrow Dizzy.It is strange how the most dreaded part is always that needle :cry: .Its all downhill after that.Turn your head away and imagine it is Colin Firth or whoever you fancy putting the needle in (?!!!).It still hurts but you dont show it !!
my girl has just showed me how to use skype so we can chat went she at uni. i am so gonna misss her when weekend is over then i will think about monday one thing at time
Yes my first one was in the back of the hand and then I had a PICC line put in. As I am having herceptin for a further 9 months afer the chemo I was given this option and also my veins are not the best so it will save them getting too damaged. You may be able to have this done if you want, it does mean that it is in all the time and I have to have it flushed through once a week. Some people may not like the idea of something being stuck in their arm for a year! It does not hurt and have learnt to live with it.
I hope all went well today, just take it easy over the next few days, you will feel back to normal I am sure this time next week.
nina i hope you are feeling a bit brighter - if any consolation I had a wobbly sunday and thought i was over it, then after a bottle of red monday, thought things were fine. Head hits the pillow and out it comes, me sobbing like a baby. I thought with my other half being partially deaf he woudn't know, but he did and he just held me. I felt better i think for just letting it out - we can't be brave all the time. sending you two arms (one stronger than the other thanks to the biospy!) to wrap around you when you feel blue.
i havent started my chemo yet and i am still waiting for the results of the second op. it all goes in one ear and out the other. I really cant remember if it was to check for pre cancerous cells or just to remove more of a margin as a precaution. But now I will not know until Wednesday. I asked my nurse about chemo and frm what i remember of that converstation it should be about 4 weeks, and then 6 cycles, third weekly. I will prob have hormone tablets too as i have half oestrogen sensitivity (or what ever they call it!). I have prepared myself mentally as best as you can do for a possibl masstectomy, only thing is it might delay the chemo, i want to get started so chemo will finish roughly two to three weeks before my 45th. Any excuse to celebrate each phase, and moving forward. And HAPPY BIRTHDAY to those of you celebrating this week. i am nervous, but with the needle thingy - ---
most of us had kids so know a contraction lasts between 50 and 70 seconds. a midwife told me to stop concentrating on the contractions and imagine walking up a steep moountain with huge effort and keep and eye on the clock, so when the peak of the contraction hit, i would be at the top of the mountain and ready to 'roll down'. All that kept going through my head was 'jack and jill went up the hill...... anyway now when i am faced with the needle, i turn my head and think of either something wonderful - children, flowers in the field, and count the wonderful things i can see in my mind, or i i try and remember everyones birthdays in date order, and all the while, in the other hand, i press my nails into the palm to see if i can peirce the skin. Result is - i forget the needle the hand hurts and the memory is proved to be failing...... but we can't have it all !!! and for a couple of quid at the chemist, you can ge some emla or other numbing cream.
So today, i have coloured my hair - the grey was coming through, had some very short layers cut in to give some body so it resembles the wig (lol!) and for a once in ablue moon change, mascara eyeshadow, blush and lipstick. Now the old man (gorgeous he is really!) will really wonder what the hell is going on - can't remember the last time i wore any makeup. i thought it would be good to practice after a good facemask to remind me how simple it is, for when I really need it!
Caz i love the way you have turned around, i am so glad you could laugh about it, laughter is a great healer, and apparantly keeps the wrinkles at bay too.
I have been using my exercise bike and getting around half a day - sometimes more effort than others in terms of what i put in. However, not only starting to feel better and mroe ready to face the dreaded chemo, but my daughter (16) came into the bathroom this morning and took one look at my half naked bottom and said ' your bum looks nice and toned now.' what a boost to a 44 year old ! im thinking of not wearing the low cut dress for the wedding now, but rather one that is long at the front and short enough to show of my bum at the back,,,,,,, what do you think....??????? show off your best assets and all that ...?
i have mentioned before about the support on here being wonderful, and how it would be really good to find out who is reasonably local or who would like to meet up if the chance arose. I live in W london, not far from heathrow airport, but could travel.
My email/msn is as my screen name - then 1 at hotmail.com I access email frequently, so if anyone fancies a chat.......
