Hi lovely I'm really nervous about Monday but gone from dreading it coming to wanting to get started.   The sooner I start the sooner I get rid of it.  Pleases yr embracing the Wig situation.   We get  a voucher towards a wig apparently  but haven't got mine yet.  I've already decided when it grows back, I had long her right now, I'm going very white blonde and funky and I'm getting some doc marten boots, I'm definitely  going to embrace the cropped look.  Today is  a good day for me but I've had some shockers and suspect there will be more along the journey but at the end of this long journey I think there will be a new and better me x

Hi lovely ladies,

Madgee I really love the idea of the new look. Elvira114 I totally understand the fear of chemo starting and thinking if the cancer is growing inside you !!!

I am the same !! I know ,my Dr was saying the same ..it is slow growing but I just wanted out.....sometime si want to scream !!!

It is a better day today ,thank God it is a bit sunnier this morning in Glasgow...that definitely helps.

I am waiting now for my "" fish request" no idea what this was but after googling it ,I know now . The waiting game is torture !!

I am trying to be more positive today  I know everything will be OK, for all of us

Thank you so much for keeping in touch , it helps so so  much .

I am sending  positive energy and hugs to you both xxxxx

Hello lovely ladies,

Im also loving the idea of a new look!! I'm really enjoying the wig shopping so I think I might embrace this too. 
I know exactly how you feel with the anxiety on chemo, but simultaneously wanting it to start. I've heard that the nurses are incredible in helping managing side effects. So we'll be in great hands! 
 

I'm glad you had a better day V1234, and like you said we will all be ok. We got this!! Cancer might be strong but we are stronger <3 

Please do explain what a fish request is? I haven't heard of that term yet. 
 

Sending hugs xxx

Hi Elvira114,  Hi Madgee 

I am glad to hear from you Elvira114 and how you enjoying the wig shopping.  I will probably need your advice when I start my chemo.

Fish request is extra tests that they do using the biopsy they have initially taken. It seems that my braest cancer is hormonal and because I have 2 lumps they had to check both of them about the her2  ...I have asked the Dr and he said that if both are negative I might not need chemo..

I hope this makes sense!!

Have a lovely evening both. 

Sending lots of love to you both .xxxx

I am thinking of you. I hope you've enjoyed your weekend! 
 

i'm sending you all the strength and positive thoughts for tomorrow. You're strong, and we are with you every step of the way! 

Please let us know how you are xx
 

Hi lovely ladies,

I hope you had a restful weekend . 

Thinking of you Madgee. I know everything will be absolutely fine.  

Sending love and hugs to both of you.xxxxx

Oh thank you  Elvira114  and V1234 I had such a lovely time I cried when it ended.  Had my hair cut really short tonight and it's OK.  I also got my wig trimmed which looks better than my own hair so that's given me a lift.  When I get home tomorrow  that's one chemo down 5 to go and thats the first big step.  Will let u know how I get on.  Kindle charged and loaded. Spotify playlists ready.  Candy Crush ready to go.  Just need to hold my nerves.  How are you my lovelies Hope your both holding up and trying to be as positive as possible.   It's a journey but it's not forever.  Have you anymore updates ladies ? Sending loads of love to you both.   

I'm so glad you had a lovely time!! You sound very well prepared and I'm convinced you got this lady. The countdown can begin now, and exactly like you said it's not forever!

my update.. ive finished my fertility treatment this week (went well they got quite some eggs out ️) and had my port placed in my arm on Thursday. I didn't even knew that was possible, I thought they always went in your chest!
I start Zoladex tomorrow (for ovarian suppression to give me better chances at keeping fertility after chemo). I've spoken to my oncologist a few times as I've been concerned about changes in my breast but he thinks it's mainly driven by the hormones I've been taking for fertility, so I'm trying my best to keep calm until I start chemo on the 22nd. 
 

I'm starting with EC and then moving on to paclitaxel and herceptin. They've given me a lot to read but the nurses were lovely! Feel very happy they've given me a 24hr line to call in case I need them. It's nice to know they're people ready to help you.
 

All in all.. im doing ok ️ My brother was over this week from back home (im Dutch originally) and that was a great distraction. Now im ready to kick cancers butt!! 
 

Let us know how you get on. Sending love xxx

Oh wonderful lots of eggs is great my friend doing IVF at min.  I'm so pleased you caught up with yr brother too.  Yes the support is just incredible you will kick it's butt for sure and before you know it you will be cooking those eggs and looking at prams.  Stay strong lovely lots to look forward to after this journey  for us all

Hi both,

So.good to hear from both of you and how well prepared you both are.

So good to hear Madgee about you new hair . I am sure you look beautiful! You are so organised as well ...I am so the opposite at the moment I am usually so organised and always want to know what I am doing but now ...I am still waiting for the " fish request " ..I am hoping that I will find out more details this week.

Elvira114 I am so so happy for you, such wonderful news about the eggs  

On the 22nd I suppose to be having my mri scan of my arteries but not sure if this will change this week.

Please keep in touch ,so good to hear from both of you.

Have a good night xxxx