Hiya 

I am new to the forum and I am so worried as well.

I found a lump on my right breast a couple of days ago and i have an appointment with my gp next Thursday...the waiting game is the hardest ...I cannot stop crying and thinking the worst...it is really hard .

I hope you get some great results .

You too it's a worrying  time for sure.  I feel exactly  the same.  My best day this week as so busy at work.  Distraction  seems to be the best thing right now. Hope your results are good too x

Bless you  not sure of yr age but I am 59 so reconstruction  not on my priority list but irrelevant  of age if your appearance  is very important I totally get it because it's very important to have some normality to look forward to and to be the You you want to be when it's all over.  Just research but go for what's right for you  hunn it's so important  you  get thru this and are comfortable with how you look st the end of it all.  Sorry I'm not much help hun x

Hi Madgee, 

I had no idea about the reconstruction but the Dr mentioned it during the discussion yesterday.  I am 45 years old . I  am not really sure what I will go for , I just want everything to finish and kill this horrible disease!

I  hope u have a good night xxxx

Hi V1234, 

I think it's completely normal to feel tired, the stress is exhausting! I hope you still managed to get some sleep?

I've had a brief conversation with my surgeon, she will do the mastectomy and node clearance and if possible a reconstruction straight away. We haven't discussed it in detail yet as I need to get through chemo first, but in an ideal world, I would do it from my own tissue because for some reason it makes it feel more like 'me'. But if not possible, it's not the end of the world personally either. This is super personal though, you need to do whatever you feel comfortable with. Maybe discuss all the options with your surgeon and they might be able to advise you best :)

But I agree on wanting evertyhing to finish and beat this things butt!! 

Madgee I hope you have heard some more news on next steps and went to start treatment. Great shout on the wig shopping.. I've been contemplating on using a cold cap, but have had so much hair loss already from the stress (ironic isnt it) that I'm not sure if making myself more uncomfortable during chemo is worth it. Did you go to a special store? Not even sure where to start!

Sending love to you both xxx

Hi Girls got my date start next Monday just want to crack on now.  Sadly couldn't squeeze my covid booster jab in. My wig lady was lovely and it's really quite nice but need my hairdresser to trim the fringe. I also bought some bandanna type hats and i plan to get a cheaper wig for walks in the winter in case it gets wet. I'm spending the weekend with my best pals at a cottage obviously  all being well they healthy  and all doing lateral flows think that will be great for my mental health and a fab distraction.  Hope you both coping  and ready to rid of this disease so you can move on and enjoy everything  once again.   It won't beat us.  Love to you both we got this xxxx

Your so much younger than me hun it might be the right thing for you to have a reconstruction  but you have time to consider your options.  I have spoken with a lovely lady who is coming to the end of this journey.   She chose to have reconstruction  and is about to have her other breast me to match.  I guess it's on howi mportant it is to each individual.   Who knows I may have a change of heart.  Stay positive  and take one day at a time.  Sending love x

Hi Madgee and Elvira114, 

I hope you are both well. I was thinking about you both today.

It has been not a very good day for me today,I was feeling a  bit  down .

Feeling a bit better this evening when my husband and my daughter came back .

Have a good night. Sending my love to you both. Stay strong and positive xxx

Tomorrow  will be better  hun. We are going to have some really rubbish days on this journey but there will be good days too as we adjust to this new way of life but remember  it's not forever.  Stay strong sending a huge hug. Sometimes  I feel a lot better after a good cry, don't bottle it up, taking is good. Take care  x

Hi ladies,

Madgee- going away for the weekend sounds lovely! Taking your mind off of things and spending some quality time is such a good idea. How are you feeling about Monday? 
I'd bought a wig over the weekend (just from Amazon for fun) and have decided that I am fully going to embrace the shave and just use bandanas and wigs. It's just hair right? And when else do I get to wear wigs like that? 
 

v1234- it's ok to have bad days. We're not robots and emotions and anxiety is high when you have to deal with this. Don't be too hard on yourself, try to take it one day at a time and tomorrow is a new day <3  you got this, you're strong!

Im starting to get a bit anxious about chemo coming up and side effects. Putting a brave face on, but I find it difficult waiting now for 2 weeks for it to start. I know it'll be hard so let's just get this over with! I'm also afraid that the cancer is slowly growing and spreading while I'm waiting for chemo to start, even though my oncologist has told me it won't go that fast. Anyone feels this? 90% if my day I'm my positive bubbly self, but the other 10% dark thoughts creep in.. 

Thank you lovely ladies for being here, you have no idea how much it means xxx

Hi lovely I'm really nervous about Monday but gone from dreading it coming to wanting to get started.   The sooner I start the sooner I get rid of it.  Pleases yr embracing the Wig situation.   We get  a voucher towards a wig apparently  but haven't got mine yet.  I've already decided when it grows back, I had long her right now, I'm going very white blonde and funky and I'm getting some doc marten boots, I'm definitely  going to embrace the cropped look.  Today is  a good day for me but I've had some shockers and suspect there will be more along the journey but at the end of this long journey I think there will be a new and better me x

Hi lovely ladies,

Madgee I really love the idea of the new look. Elvira114 I totally understand the fear of chemo starting and thinking if the cancer is growing inside you !!!

I am the same !! I know ,my Dr was saying the same ..it is slow growing but I just wanted out.....sometime si want to scream !!!

It is a better day today ,thank God it is a bit sunnier this morning in Glasgow...that definitely helps.

I am waiting now for my "" fish request" no idea what this was but after googling it ,I know now . The waiting game is torture !!

I am trying to be more positive today  I know everything will be OK, for all of us

Thank you so much for keeping in touch , it helps so so  much .

I am sending  positive energy and hugs to you both xxxxx

Hi lovely ladies,

Madgee I really love the idea of the new look. Elvira114 I totally understand the fear of chemo starting and thinking if the cancer is growing inside you !!!

I am the same !! I know ,my Dr was saying the same ..it is slow growing but I just wanted out.....sometime si want to scream !!!

It is a better day today ,thank God it is a bit sunnier this morning in Glasgow...that definitely helps.

I am waiting now for my "" fish request" no idea what this was but after googling it ,I know now . The waiting game is torture !!

I am trying to be more positive today  I know everything will be OK, for all of us

Thank you so much for keeping in touch , it helps so so  much .

I am sending  positive energy and hugs to you both xxxxx

Hello lovely ladies,

Im also loving the idea of a new look!! I'm really enjoying the wig shopping so I think I might embrace this too. 
I know exactly how you feel with the anxiety on chemo, but simultaneously wanting it to start. I've heard that the nurses are incredible in helping managing side effects. So we'll be in great hands! 
 

I'm glad you had a better day V1234, and like you said we will all be ok. We got this!! Cancer might be strong but we are stronger <3 

Please do explain what a fish request is? I haven't heard of that term yet. 
 

Sending hugs xxx

Hi Elvira114,  Hi Madgee 

I am glad to hear from you Elvira114 and how you enjoying the wig shopping.  I will probably need your advice when I start my chemo.

Fish request is extra tests that they do using the biopsy they have initially taken. It seems that my braest cancer is hormonal and because I have 2 lumps they had to check both of them about the her2  ...I have asked the Dr and he said that if both are negative I might not need chemo..

I hope this makes sense!!

Have a lovely evening both. 

Sending lots of love to you both .xxxx