Bless you  it's very surreal especially  for you so young.   But yes I was told the same very curable so hang on to that.  Keep in touch and stay strong you got this girl. Sending you massive hugs.  Much love  

How are you coping Hun? You have been in my thoughts.  I have spoke to my care team a few times when my mind has been running wild and they have been so kind and reassuring.  They have told me to speak to them when I get fixated on dark thoughts and every time they lift me and make me think more rationally so please speak with them if you too get too down with it all.  Sending love x

You're too kind! :)

I've had my CT scan and MRI yesterday/today and am meeting my oncologist tomorrow morning. So I'm hoping it will help to get some clarity on treatment! It is a strange feeling knowing that something is wrong in your body, but you just have to sit around and wait which I think fuels the anxiety even more. 

The nurse today was ever so kind when I had my MRI, she calmed me down and told me to just focus on taking 1 step at a time. So I'm currently trying to take my mind off of things and keeping busy. I know me worrying about the results won't change the outcome so I'm trying my hardest to not think about it constantly.  

Really pleased to hear your care team has been so kind and reassuring! The dark thoughts are always around the corner, but it is good that you have people you can turn too when the thoughts get too heavy. 

Please know that we are all here for you too! X

Good news that everything is happening  so quickly sounds like you have a good team looking after you.  Just stay as strong as you possibly  can.  Company of friends prove a great distraction for me and someone making me belly laugh is like being given a hundred quid so fill your days with good friends and talk drivvle it just gives your head a break from it as I've found it consuming some days.  Please let us know how you get on.  We can do this

Hi Elvira114,

So good to hear that everything is happening so quickly .

It is really hard to stop all the dark thoughts but as you said when you have the support of people around you it is a good feeling. 

Sorry my English is not that good so I am really sorry if I don't make any sense sometimes.

I have received  my letter for the hospital appointment yesterday for next Wednesday in the morning! 

I am so scared what the tests will show and what will happen during the appointment. 

I can stop crying  when I am on my own at home,  I can't concentrate at all.

I am sending ally love to you all.

Have a good, restful night.

Thinking all of you .xxx

Don't apologise, you make complete sense! :) 

I know it's really hard when you're alone, I have the same and they are the moments when I can't stop either. But 
 

I'm really glad you know when your appointment will be, at least you know when the next step is, and hopefully they will be able to give you some answers. 
 

Is there anything you could do meanwhile to take your mind off of things, something that you enjoy doing? 
 

thinking of you, sending all positive thoughts!! X

Thank you so much  

I am trying to occupy my mind with work and house work when I am alone at home and then when my hubby and my little daughter is back home it is a bit easier .

My hubby is very supportive which is so good but I have not said anything to tye rest of the family.  When I see them and I feel so guilty bug I don't want to worry them.  I know they will start fussing and get very stressed and worried for me .

I am hoping  next week I will find my fate and have a plan of what will happen.

Thank you so much for your kind words.

Have a good night. Sending my love.xxx

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you and sending you all my positive thoughts for tomorrow. I hope you get some clarity!

hugs x

Morning V1234,

I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you. I hope your appointment went as well as it could go.

Please know we're here for you xx