About me

Hi all I joined a few days ago but my internet went down, thank you Lucie for your welcome. My problem is that my wife and sister both had cancer at the same time, I came from a large family and I was the youngest. My sister was the next so we grew up together and we were very close, my wife was ill for a while and I looked after her until that day came when she was told she had cancer and was admitted to a Hospice while she was there my sister was admitted with throat cancer. She died shortly after, then my wife died days later she was 51 on the 5th. and she died the following day the 6th. As you can imagine I was devastated and still am, I still can’t believe they have gone. When I told my next door neighbor he said I don’t want to upset you, but this is when you’ll find out who your true family and friends are, yes he was so right they all avoided me like the plague, I see no one anymore and feel so alone I just want to be with her.... I’m so sorry if this seems like a rant I’ve no intention of upsetting of bringing up sad memories for anyone, we were together for 35years and I’d give anything to be with her now.

 

  • Hi Edward,

    So sorry to read about the death of your wife and your sister - I can only imagine what you have been through and nothing I write can make this feel better.

    Your neighbour was right - false friends will fall by the wayside but the upside is that you will eventually make new ones who accept your situation. So many people just don't know what to say and will avoid you in an attempt to avoid hurting you, but will eventually get over this, others are just fair weather friends (also known as *****) who you're better off without.

    Like you, I was at sea for a long time (container ships in my case) and made loads of short term friends but these Board of Trade acquaintances rarely turned into lifelong friends. Of the hundreds of shipmates I had there are only three people I'm still in touch with though when we meet up it is like we've never been apart - except we're all grey and wrinkly. 

    Please feel free to rant on here - we all do it from time to time as cancer is cruel and life was never fair. 

    Cheers

    Dave

  • Hi edward you have certainly had a terrible time .i lost my partner three months ago the loneliness is crippling your not alone wishing we could be with our loves . I did a post to you about getting help . There is hope and help out there and on here you just need to keep talking and talking. Yes people disapear and it makes it worse some ime from a big family like you and not heard from some of them but until you have been through this they just dont understand. They say once you have hit rock bottom the only way is up . First thing i did when i lost liz was ring local hospice and asked for some counciling it wasnt great at the begining but they can help how you think next i looked on internet and join a bereavement group again it helped because i could talk to people like me and you and share with them theres other things but try starting from there .it gets you out every week .also go and have a chat to gp see if he can help . Ime Ime afraid no ones going to help if you dont ask but doing thoes things made me feel i was on my way back up try starting there small steps. There lots of people here that will chat and help you if they can . I do feel for you.p