Hi all I joined a few days ago but my internet went down, thank you Lucie for your welcome. My problem is that my wife and sister both had cancer at the same time, I came from a large family and I was the youngest. My sister was the next so we grew up together and we were very close, my wife was ill for a while and I looked after her until that day came when she was told she had cancer and was admitted to a Hospice while she was there my sister was admitted with throat cancer. She died shortly after, then my wife died days later she was 51 on the 5th. and she died the following day the 6th. As you can imagine I was devastated and still am, I still can’t believe they have gone. When I told my next door neighbor he said I don’t want to upset you, but this is when you’ll find out who your true family and friends are, yes he was so right they all avoided me like the plague, I see no one anymore and feel so alone I just want to be with her.... I’m so sorry if this seems like a rant I’ve no intention of upsetting of bringing up sad memories for anyone, we were together for 35years and I’d give anything to be with her now.