I can’t believe my daughter is gone forever.

My precious 27 year old daughter passed away 15 days ago. She had a very aggressive form of adenocarcina which started in the colon and spread to her lungs and spine. We tried everything to find a way to slow or stop this monster. She fought so hard and suffered horribly. Due to what the hospice nurses said was a metabolic disorder her body would not absorb pain medication properly. Her breathing at the end was exceptionally labored. I held her hand to my face and told her how much i loved her. Now i feel so anxious, afraid and anguished that she is gone forever. She was kind and loving to all and brought shear joy to my life. How do i go on? I have one other adult child who is very different from me and is not supportive of me. I am a widow of 9 years now as well.

Kelley

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  •  l am so, so, sorry to hear of your great loss, and know that l do not have enough words to comfort your pain entirely, but hopefully with all the others on this forum adding their thoughts and wishes it might be possible to help make it just a little more bearable

      As a survivor of bowel and liver cancer,l live every day with those l met on my journey that sadly did make it with me to my destination. l question why me and not them, some were much more deserving,younger,those with children, those that had more potential, the list goes on.It has taken me years to come to terms with this, or at least accept and move on.The one constant that has carried through was the determination to live every day l have left to its full, to somehow justify our joint battles and to carry them with me in my heart,mind and on my shoulder, they help me to be a better person.l hope the memory of your daughter will help you in the life you have in front of you

                                                                                David

     

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  •  l am so, so, sorry to hear of your great loss, and know that l do not have enough words to comfort your pain entirely, but hopefully with all the others on this forum adding their thoughts and wishes it might be possible to help make it just a little more bearable

      As a survivor of bowel and liver cancer,l live every day with those l met on my journey that sadly did make it with me to my destination. l question why me and not them, some were much more deserving,younger,those with children, those that had more potential, the list goes on.It has taken me years to come to terms with this, or at least accept and move on.The one constant that has carried through was the determination to live every day l have left to its full, to somehow justify our joint battles and to carry them with me in my heart,mind and on my shoulder, they help me to be a better person.l hope the memory of your daughter will help you in the life you have in front of you

                                                                                David

     

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