Hello to all

I am 52 years old, 3 years into a new relationship, very happy, planning to do lots of things. loving my jobs, everything going really well until I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer earlier this year.

I have already undergone surgery (Diep flap breast reconstruction and axillary clearance), 8 weeks post op. 

I am glad to this day that from diagnosis, biopsies and scans to surgery that things have moved as quickly as possible, but now i am an emotional wreck and am finding every day mentally hard.

Everyone around me says how strong i am and that i got this, how well i have recovered, but inside i am not coping. I know that writing things down is a good way of outing my thoughts and feelings, so here i am!