First Christmas without my dad

My dad died of cancer in September of this year, I feel like I just want to hide away and come out in the new year. I am really struggling, I fee; really low and have little or no interest in celebrating Xmas this year. Some friends or colleagues cant seem to understand why i dont want to put a tree up, or to get excited about everything.

I saw ny dad the day he died, my mu didnt realsie he had died she thought he was sleeping or had lapsed into a coma, but the minute i touched him i knew.

I feel so alone and also so tired all the time, I have a friend whom i thought was a good supportive friend but she has changed jobs and i dont hear fron her so much, its like out of sight out of mind. Yesterday was the 3 month ago that he died. I feel lost i'm going through stuff and i want his advice but i cant have it. 

I have an epmtyness in my chest and it hurts 

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  • Hi, just reaching out because I'm in the exact same situation as you. My dad passed on my birthday last month, so it's all very raw. I feel numb and tired and have no will to celebrate either. I just want to say take it easy, and please put yourself first. If you don't wanna do Christmas - don't do Christmas. Just make sure you've got yourself some nice food and a warm blanket and a good movie. 
     

    My mum has gone full throttle wanting a big family Christmas to honour his memory as it was a big time for his personality. I'm dreading it, to be honest, I just don't feel ready to go home tomorrow and him not be making the dinner. 
     

    I know my response seems pretty defeatist but I just want you to know you're not alone and your grief is valid. :)

     

    Please take care. 

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  • Hi, just reaching out because I'm in the exact same situation as you. My dad passed on my birthday last month, so it's all very raw. I feel numb and tired and have no will to celebrate either. I just want to say take it easy, and please put yourself first. If you don't wanna do Christmas - don't do Christmas. Just make sure you've got yourself some nice food and a warm blanket and a good movie. 
     

    My mum has gone full throttle wanting a big family Christmas to honour his memory as it was a big time for his personality. I'm dreading it, to be honest, I just don't feel ready to go home tomorrow and him not be making the dinner. 
     

    I know my response seems pretty defeatist but I just want you to know you're not alone and your grief is valid. :)

     

    Please take care. 

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