My mum has a stage 4 cancer. The doctors have said possibly 2 years but some people live longer but it cannot be cured. She is 61.
When we first learned it was cancer i obviously feared the worst and worried she may only have weeks left.... so on one hand I am happy she has longer and is also physically very well at the moment making it hard to imagine what road might lie ahead.
I get very upset when I am alone and cry when I think about the years a head. I am scared for my mum. I dont want her to be scared or feel ill. I feel sad for myself who will lose my mum but most of all I feel blind panic worrying how she will cope with the future. I read about other people accepting and being strong.... what if my mum isnt? It breaks my heart i just dont want her to be unhappy and have her life taken away. She is so independent and has so many activities and hobbies she is involved in.
I would rather this happened to me than her.
