Hi Gary, 

I also lost my partner of 15 years 12 weeks ago tomorrow, to pancreatic cancer with liver metastasis and synchronous lung cancer which had spread to his other lung no symptoms at all until jaundice at the end of March 

I know the pain your going through and have no words of wisdom to Offer as I continue to struggle daily he died 12 weeks after diagnosis in my arms at home where he wanted to be reading some of the stories we were lucky to have 12 weeks however they were 12 weeks of constant anxiety and pain at knowing that our time was limited however we did get to say all we needed too. I looked after him for the 12 weeks and the only comfort I get is that in his last 2 breaths he opened his eyes and smiled at me so I know he was happy wherever his journey was taking him 
just to say really your not alone

Hi Keli thank you

its just over a week for me so very raw, nine days before she was taken from me we went out for a meal with our daughters it was my birthday she looked so gorgeous and she put on such a brave happy face but that was Teresa all over, I had no idea at that point she would die just nine days later and two days before our 32nd wedding anniversary. After feeling unwell over Christmas the GP diagnosed anemia but wouldn't treat it until he knew the cause scans showed internal bleeding and tumours on her liver they stopped the bleeding using radiotherapy then found the liver tumour was secondary to a esophogus cancer she has had an awful time of things since February in and out hospital with complications with the various medications feeling sick every day and she never complained once, as I said previously we had a brief flirtation with good news and hope things would be okay before it was cruelly snatched away and we were slammed to the floor again, but as you say the whole journey was full of anxiety and worry constantly fearing things weren't good, I'm lucky I got ger home for her last few days and she died in my arms I was able to kiss her tell her I loved her and that everything was going to be okay as she passed away and I'm so grateful for those last couple of minutes. She was my world everything we did was together and I just feel so desperate.

cancer took one of my kidneys a chunk of my arm and of my leg in 2004 I was lucky and breezed through it and I thought I'd done our share of the cancer stats but not to be it came back and destroyed me good and proper this time

sorry for going on 

Your not going on at all can fully understand your feelings and dispair my heart aches for my lovely gorgeous partner Ian 

thinking of you and others in this position x

Thanks Keli

take care x

Thanks Keli

take care x