Ohh Gary I feel your pain

I lost my husband 6 weeks ago & the pain & sadness in my body is just unbelievable I just cannot get it in my head that he's left me. The thought of not seeing him for days, weeks, months & years is overwhelming. 
 

We had the all clear & then bang within a month of hearing this it came back with a vengeance. It's absolutely rubbish. 
 

I hope it gets easier, gosh I hope so. I've had to go back to work, I do the best I can there, can't wait to get home & then when I'm home I hate it with a passion. 
Garry stick on here I chat to a chap called Racey1 on 'struggling' whose lost his wife too always join our chat, we've always got something to say whether we are feeling lower than a snakes belly or just coped that day. 
 

Be kind to yourself,  grief is exhausting & we are all surviving in this awful time. 
Have you any close family nearby? 
Always give me a nudge if you want to chat even if it's just a 1 liner saying how you're feeling ~ hang in there x

Hi Babyem

im so sorry that's really cruel getting the all clear then it coming back so quickly I can't imagine how you must have felt. As you say I can't believe I'll never see her again at the moment I'm in what I call hospital mode where I'm used to her being away for a week or two so it kind feels like that's where she is untill reality kicks in and it destroys me everytime my phone pings I momentarily think it's her texting me, I'm lucky I have my children and great friends but I'm still struggling so badly.

There's no easy get out for any of us victims of cancer and everyone's journey is different but thank you for replying to my post and I genuinely hope you find peace and yourself in a better place real soon 

Gary

Hi Babyem

im so sorry that's really cruel getting the all clear then it coming back so quickly I can't imagine how you must have felt. As you say I can't believe I'll never see her again at the moment I'm in what I call hospital mode where I'm used to her being away for a week or two so it kind feels like that's where she is untill reality kicks in and it destroys me everytime my phone pings I momentarily think it's her texting me, I'm lucky I have my children and great friends but I'm still struggling so badly.

There's no easy get out for any of us victims of cancer and everyone's journey is different but thank you for replying to my post and I genuinely hope you find peace and yourself in a better place real soon 

Gary