He was 49, 10 days off 50 when he died.  Must be worse for you having kids.  Everything reminds me of him.  God it hurts.  Sleep is a thing of the past, either have nightmares or lie awake unable to sleep.  

Having children keeps me distracted and I'm very proud to keep her bloodline going if that makes any sense yes it's hard! Like I said it's all the little things the rest of the world didn't get to see I miss? It's hard but you must remember your husband is in no more pain I know that doesn't count for much because you want him back just like I do! Just take one day at a time  I also miss adult company 

We only got married last year together for 9 years, thought I had it made after i had an abusive marriage first time round.

Life doesn't seem fair, so little time together.  How long were you together.

 I met her along time ago but ten years ago  we got together 2019 Had a wonderful wedding so I only had one valentines card from her as a husband Which is really sad yes life isn't fair at all I thought we would grow old together obviously not 

I had no valentines as wife, and was hard last Sunday all alone.  31st March our 1st anniversay is going to be hard.  Plus 1 day after eviction date so not sure what will happen.  Apparently courts will hear none payments and anti social ones first so might have a few more weeks.  We were going to buy a house this year, plans from a year ago before he was ill  and would have taken out life insurance.  But didn't do that and now wish we had.  Just shows you shouldn't put it off.

31 March that's my wife's birthday!!!  My wife never had life Insurance  Not even myself had any kind of living for the day but I know what you mean! Life has a way of being cruel to the people they've done nothing wrong that's what I find hard all my wife was a kind considerate person and it was taken from the world it seems like cancer any takes good people 

To be honest this is a party hate hate being lonely this is where it gets crazy because if I could sleep next to another girl I don't think I like that but at the same time I've loved doing that for 10 years i'm obviously not ready for relationship but miss the company the one-to-one

Yeah miss touch, my husband in last few months distanced himself from me.  Like he already had one foot in the grave.

But I know what you mean.

That must of been so hard for you if you enjoy kissing touchin ect for me my wife wanted to do it all the time until she had to go into a hospice even then she sent me naughty pictures bless her I love her so much but do you miss sharing my life with someone 

I sent you a friend request for private messages but it is easier on here as we get an email when someone has left you a message in private you don't get that