I can understand that It must've been very hard for you what do your husband having to go through that as his wife and his carer i'm so glad I never had the day that that's a special kind of person so you should be pleased that you did everything you could
He didn't want carers, and I respected his wishes but I found it hard to care for him. Changing the bed on my own was really hard. The night before he died I asked for help, as I was exhausted. Would give anything to go back in time. He was in severe pain towards the end. what is so hard to understand was his lung cancer as he never smoked a day in his life. He was the most kind gentle and special man, he would do anything for anyone.
Do you have to give yourself so much credit for doing all that I could never of done that for my wife we should be proud of yourself! I guess I was lucky as he went into the hospital/hospice Surely went into the hospice because he had a slight chest infection and they wanted to get that gone before chemo
Then about a week before she died they told us it is spread her lungs but again being in the hospice there was no pain she was sleeping like a baby! I guess the fact is she's never going to be with me anymore according to the law she's not even my wife anymore that's a strange feeling I have to keep the she's up in the sky looking out for me ! Before she died she told me she wants me to find happiness again I'm not sure how that's going to happen but I guess I'll try I don't wanna be alone I'm only 40 everything is just so hard now
I am 53 and I don't want to be on my own either, he wouldn't talk to me about anything to do with him dying. Not sure if he got his wishes with the cremation and funeral. His family are a waste of space and his niece even before he was cremated tried to get some of his stuff, bloody vultures. Saying it was what he would have wanted. In 9 years only met her twice so she started saying she loved me, what a joke. Just trying to get me to give her stuff.
Having to type your password in every time to get a message does my heading on the site For me I did everything she wanted she wanted to be cremated and then a stone placed at the cemetery local to us I've done everything but but The headstone I will do that maybe next month and scatter her ashes under the stone I hate thinking about things like that I just want her back through the fun things we used to do Can I be in a man I miss lots of things she did for me lol that's why I've got a try and do just remember the good times
I am going scatter his ashes in Whitby, one if his fav places.
I have had a paperweight made with some of his ashes and a pendant. I have a table in my lounge with candles photos and flowers, but some days it hurts to look at it.
Its strange my dog and cat haven't missed him, towards the last few days they were stressed but eat normally now unlike me.
My dog was really strange for a few weeks get follow me around he knew something was wrong but like you say he's always wanted food I think I've lost about two stone
I have lost about a stone but was overweight so doesn't matter. I just wish I could have a good night's sleep. Dont think I have for months, just so tired. Just wish I could face the world and get a job, but it feels me with dread. I had a good job last year working in finance but my brain seems fried.
I'm sure your go back to work when you're ready me I'm not ready yet I'm back on the construction site driving diggers so I can kind of go back whenever my boss has been pretty cool .Do you have to be kind to yourself try and go to bed make sure you're having showers and looking after yourself and you're having time for yourself . Everyone says to me things will get better and I believe them to be honest I'm never going to lose the love I had for my wife she's always going to be in my heart and I'm always going to grieve for her but I know she would want me to be happy and that's how we move forward only when I'm ready I sent you a private message
