I am someone who has lost someone dear to me to this disease and my dad is currently battling stage 4, so I do 'somewhat understand the anguish and ups and downs.
There is little I can say other than that I am so very sorry for your loss and if you ever want to talk I am here. You are not alone.
I'm sorry for your loss moving out so soon must be horrible I don't think I could do that if I'm honest! I lost my wife to breast cancer on the 22nd of December last year Cancer has ruined my life I taking the love of my life leaving me to young boys! The thought of going through her stuff is was to early so I can't imagine the pain your going through . Here if you want to talk
Jan 2020 my husband diagnosed, had surgery day after to remove spine tumour and came home unable to walk, with terminal lung cancer. Had physio then cancelled due to covid. I got him walking behind his wheelchair. Got married 31st March had planned massive wedding for Easter Saturday but cancelled due to covid. July lost my job due to covid. Got eviction notice for no reason. Dec he stopped eating and I had to watch him slowly die. Jan 2021 he died. I hate covid and I hate my landlord hope he gets karma.
I have no family to support me, my friends can't support me due to covid. Actually wish I had died with him. Don't worry not suicidal just very very sad. Cry all the time, like my heart has broken I just want him back
I understand what you're saying about dying I feel the same a lot I gave my word I look after the children till it's my time so that's what I've got to do! I'm sorry your in a mess there must be some one who can help? Crying is good you must get it all out I'm 8 weeks on and still crying! Where in the Uk are you from?
Drinking wine, probably not a good idea. Another evening all alone. Feeling sorry for myself. Saturdays before he was ill were spent having a nice meal (loved to cook) and bottle of wine watching a film, or going out. How things have changed.
I have a two year old and a nine year old so keep me busy My wife was 39 when she died I'm 40! But as soon as the kids are asleep that's when it really hits me I drink wine to then
I miss all the little things Like when she's having a shower hiding behind the door but obviously she knew I was there.Or even just cuddling on the sofa So I completely understand what you're saying it's horrible
He was 49, 10 days off 50 when he died. Must be worse for you having kids. Everything reminds me of him. God it hurts. Sleep is a thing of the past, either have nightmares or lie awake unable to sleep.
Having children keeps me distracted and I'm very proud to keep her bloodline going if that makes any sense yes it's hard! Like I said it's all the little things the rest of the world didn't get to see I miss? It's hard but you must remember your husband is in no more pain I know that doesn't count for much because you want him back just like I do! Just take one day at a time I also miss adult company
Having children keeps me distracted and I'm very proud to keep her bloodline going if that makes any sense yes it's hard! Like I said it's all the little things the rest of the world didn't get to see I miss? It's hard but you must remember your husband is in no more pain I know that doesn't count for much because you want him back just like I do! Just take one day at a time I also miss adult company
I met her along time ago but ten years ago we got together 2019 Had a wonderful wedding so I only had one valentines card from her as a husband Which is really sad yes life isn't fair at all I thought we would grow old together obviously not
I had no valentines as wife, and was hard last Sunday all alone. 31st March our 1st anniversay is going to be hard. Plus 1 day after eviction date so not sure what will happen. Apparently courts will hear none payments and anti social ones first so might have a few more weeks. We were going to buy a house this year, plans from a year ago before he was ill and would have taken out life insurance. But didn't do that and now wish we had. Just shows you shouldn't put it off.
31 March that's my wife's birthday!!! My wife never had life Insurance Not even myself had any kind of living for the day but I know what you mean! Life has a way of being cruel to the people they've done nothing wrong that's what I find hard all my wife was a kind considerate person and it was taken from the world it seems like cancer any takes good people
To be honest this is a party hate hate being lonely this is where it gets crazy because if I could sleep next to another girl I don't think I like that but at the same time I've loved doing that for 10 years i'm obviously not ready for relationship but miss the company the one-to-one
That must of been so hard for you if you enjoy kissing touchin ect for me my wife wanted to do it all the time until she had to go into a hospice even then she sent me naughty pictures bless her I love her so much but do you miss sharing my life with someone
I sent you a friend request for private messages but it is easier on here as we get an email when someone has left you a message in private you don't get that
I can understand that It must've been very hard for you what do your husband having to go through that as his wife and his carer i'm so glad I never had the day that that's a special kind of person so you should be pleased that you did everything you could
