I am someone who has lost someone dear to me to this disease and my dad is currently battling stage 4, so I do 'somewhat understand the anguish and ups and downs.
There is little I can say other than that I am so very sorry for your loss and if you ever want to talk I am here. You are not alone.
I understand what you're saying about dying I feel the same a lot I gave my word I look after the children till it's my time so that's what I've got to do! I'm sorry your in a mess there must be some one who can help? Crying is good you must get it all out I'm 8 weeks on and still crying! Where in the Uk are you from?
Drinking wine, probably not a good idea. Another evening all alone. Feeling sorry for myself. Saturdays before he was ill were spent having a nice meal (loved to cook) and bottle of wine watching a film, or going out. How things have changed.
I have a two year old and a nine year old so keep me busy My wife was 39 when she died I'm 40! But as soon as the kids are asleep that's when it really hits me I drink wine to then
I miss all the little things Like when she's having a shower hiding behind the door but obviously she knew I was there.Or even just cuddling on the sofa So I completely understand what you're saying it's horrible
He was 49, 10 days off 50 when he died. Must be worse for you having kids. Everything reminds me of him. God it hurts. Sleep is a thing of the past, either have nightmares or lie awake unable to sleep.
Having children keeps me distracted and I'm very proud to keep her bloodline going if that makes any sense yes it's hard! Like I said it's all the little things the rest of the world didn't get to see I miss? It's hard but you must remember your husband is in no more pain I know that doesn't count for much because you want him back just like I do! Just take one day at a time I also miss adult company
I met her along time ago but ten years ago we got together 2019 Had a wonderful wedding so I only had one valentines card from her as a husband Which is really sad yes life isn't fair at all I thought we would grow old together obviously not
I met her along time ago but ten years ago we got together 2019 Had a wonderful wedding so I only had one valentines card from her as a husband Which is really sad yes life isn't fair at all I thought we would grow old together obviously not
I had no valentines as wife, and was hard last Sunday all alone. 31st March our 1st anniversay is going to be hard. Plus 1 day after eviction date so not sure what will happen. Apparently courts will hear none payments and anti social ones first so might have a few more weeks. We were going to buy a house this year, plans from a year ago before he was ill and would have taken out life insurance. But didn't do that and now wish we had. Just shows you shouldn't put it off.
31 March that's my wife's birthday!!! My wife never had life Insurance Not even myself had any kind of living for the day but I know what you mean! Life has a way of being cruel to the people they've done nothing wrong that's what I find hard all my wife was a kind considerate person and it was taken from the world it seems like cancer any takes good people
To be honest this is a party hate hate being lonely this is where it gets crazy because if I could sleep next to another girl I don't think I like that but at the same time I've loved doing that for 10 years i'm obviously not ready for relationship but miss the company the one-to-one
That must of been so hard for you if you enjoy kissing touchin ect for me my wife wanted to do it all the time until she had to go into a hospice even then she sent me naughty pictures bless her I love her so much but do you miss sharing my life with someone
I sent you a friend request for private messages but it is easier on here as we get an email when someone has left you a message in private you don't get that
I can understand that It must've been very hard for you what do your husband having to go through that as his wife and his carer i'm so glad I never had the day that that's a special kind of person so you should be pleased that you did everything you could
He didn't want carers, and I respected his wishes but I found it hard to care for him. Changing the bed on my own was really hard. The night before he died I asked for help, as I was exhausted. Would give anything to go back in time. He was in severe pain towards the end. what is so hard to understand was his lung cancer as he never smoked a day in his life. He was the most kind gentle and special man, he would do anything for anyone.
Do you have to give yourself so much credit for doing all that I could never of done that for my wife we should be proud of yourself! I guess I was lucky as he went into the hospital/hospice Surely went into the hospice because he had a slight chest infection and they wanted to get that gone before chemo
Then about a week before she died they told us it is spread her lungs but again being in the hospice there was no pain she was sleeping like a baby! I guess the fact is she's never going to be with me anymore according to the law she's not even my wife anymore that's a strange feeling I have to keep the she's up in the sky looking out for me ! Before she died she told me she wants me to find happiness again I'm not sure how that's going to happen but I guess I'll try I don't wanna be alone I'm only 40 everything is just so hard now
