Hi

My daughter died eighteen months ago and she suffered so much and without complaining. I also keep thinking about her suffering on a daily basis. I did find counselling helped but then covid 19 came along and it was stopped. 

The only thing I have found to do, is to stop myself thinking about the bad times, as soon as I start thinking I try to shut the thoughts down, its not easy but I am hoping with time I will be able to remember good times without the bad.

Stay strong and safe

Mum76

Thank you for sharing mum76. My mum is coping with it the exact same way as you! Some people think it's not right to bottle up emotions and not think about the loved one but if we think of her and especially what she went through for a single minute our lives just come crashing down. So against all advice we just try to block it all out. I'm so sorry that you have these memories of your daughter. I feel like I can't think about her I'll because I don't want to remember how she suffered but I can't think about when she was well because I'm devastated at the thought of what we're all missing now x

Thank you for sharing mum76. My mum is coping with it the exact same way as you! Some people think it's not right to bottle up emotions and not think about the loved one but if we think of her and especially what she went through for a single minute our lives just come crashing down. So against all advice we just try to block it all out. I'm so sorry that you have these memories of your daughter. I feel like I can't think about her I'll because I don't want to remember how she suffered but I can't think about when she was well because I'm devastated at the thought of what we're all missing now x