I'm so sorry for your loss I feel your pain  I'm not good at this but lost my  wife to cancer  so hard to live with out her

Just found a green feather in my kitchen.

It was thoroughly cleaned yesterday and there is no explanation.

It seems to somehow resonate with me.

Like some kind of message.

Hope your ok mate I've been ok today but suddenly sunk back down I love her so much why her 

Hey mate! Yes I had one of my worst days today - almost overwhelming.

I had a beer and started to feel better.

My Mum found a green feather that mysteriously appeared and i took as a sign that my angel wife is here with us.

It brought me some comfort - like she's saying it's all ok.

Hope you are doing a bit better.

I was the same yesterday  if I'm honest  feel so numb and lost   Still question why all the time we were/our good people  how can I get through this knowing nothing wil EVER be the same I want to feel like my wife is in a better place  no more pain in heaven etc! But deep down I'm sure she would of wanted to live she loved her life ...... then I think about the cancer she wouldn't of been happy bedridden at all which brings me back to Wild if you get cancer in the first place  I can't do this  but have to somehow 

I can imagine how you felt finding the feather. She is with you, watching over you. Your love is strong. I now each day is not easy, I just feel empty and lost. 

We are going to get through this mate - get through it for our soulmates.

We both know what we are both going through and it is going to take time even though the spark of life has been extinguished in us.

Just got to put days behind us and hope for better days.

They are both watching us.

They need us to keep going.

Your right but it's so hard  just went to Sainsbury's for food  and general stuff  for the boys that was so horrible looking at  young children shampoo and crying because not sure what she would bye it was like that intill I got outside 

It's going to be like this - so many things are going to remind you of her and you are going to cry. It's good to cry anywhere.

This morning I was thinking of Rossella and the time she kept dropping food because she started losing coordination.  I remember i got a bit upset because had to keep changing the bed sheets. When I think of this now i feel like i don't deserve to live - she was helpless.

I just have to stop beating myself up.

That's very true you / we have to stop beating ourselves up one of my problem s is I can't except she wants to be in heaven or is happy she loved life  so much