I know what you are going through, I lost my husband back in June, my emotions are all over the place, I hide my emotions, which probably is not the thing to do, but I do put a front on, but inside I am screaming. It's so difficult, becsuse you can not meet people to talk about your emotions and how you really feel. I am so scared since losing my husband, it's horrible being on your own in the house. I do go for walks, but don't like going on my own. I really miss going to my gym, which helped mentally so much, I just feel punished, and there is nothing we can do until this dreadful pandemic goes. They don't know the half how many people are suffering in silence. But I really feel your pain, it's going to take time to ease. It is important to try and get out to clear your head. It's just a horrible time, please look after yourself. 

Yes getting out and walking does help and being around friends and family.

Everytime someone hugs me I just break down in tears - I don't try to hide it anymore. I know I need to let it out whenever it comes.

I know we are not supposed to do these things in the pandemic but without those hugs I think i would go crazy.

I know this pandemic has taken so much away from us, I know a hug is such a comfort. It really had been a cruel time for us. It's when you stop doing and sit down, that's when it hits you. The feelings and emotions are horrible, when will it end. These messages help, although it's not nice knowing what we are all going through, just try and be strong. 

Yes I am trying to be strong but there is just this awful mechanism in the mind that I just can't get away from.

Rossella said I was strong and would handle this but I don't feel strong at all.

I feel some comfort in this community sharing with people who understand. 

Today is a bad day unfortunately but I will keep going.

I understand I was told that I am a strong person, but this is some challenge that I don't want. I know some days are worse than others. I know everything will remind you of your darling, it's only natural. The loss is really overwhelming, but she would want you to try your best, grief if so hard, it is a illness something I will never forget. Take care,

I understand I was told that I am a strong person, but this is some challenge that I don't want. I know some days are worse than others. I know everything will remind you of your darling, it's only natural. The loss is really overwhelming, but she would want you to try your best, grief if so hard, it is a illness something I will never forget. Take care,

Just found a green feather in my kitchen.

It was thoroughly cleaned yesterday and there is no explanation.

It seems to somehow resonate with me.

Like some kind of message.

I can imagine how you felt finding the feather. She is with you, watching over you. Your love is strong. I now each day is not easy, I just feel empty and lost.