I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
I was the same yesterday if I'm honest feel so numb and lost Still question why all the time we were/our good people how can I get through this knowing nothing wil EVER be the same I want to feel like my wife is in a better place no more pain in heaven etc! But deep down I'm sure she would of wanted to live she loved her life ...... then I think about the cancer she wouldn't of been happy bedridden at all which brings me back to Wild if you get cancer in the first place I can't do this but have to somehow
I can imagine how you felt finding the feather. She is with you, watching over you. Your love is strong. I now each day is not easy, I just feel empty and lost.
Your right but it's so hard just went to Sainsbury's for food and general stuff for the boys that was so horrible looking at young children shampoo and crying because not sure what she would bye it was like that intill I got outside
It's going to be like this - so many things are going to remind you of her and you are going to cry. It's good to cry anywhere.
This morning I was thinking of Rossella and the time she kept dropping food because she started losing coordination. I remember i got a bit upset because had to keep changing the bed sheets. When I think of this now i feel like i don't deserve to live - she was helpless.
That's very true you / we have to stop beating ourselves up one of my problem s is I can't except she wants to be in heaven or is happy she loved life so much
