I lost my wife to cancer recently and I have never felt so alone. I am experiencing all kinds of extreme emotions from grief to guilt. I really want to connect and talk to others who have been through this terrible period.
Hi Gabriella! So glad that you are in a happy relationship - that's something to be really cherished.
When you talk about putting barriers up that's exactly what I am doing now and crying less - although to be honest I am getting light headaches now since this is happening. When i cry it also brings some relief. I am worried that i am becoming a bit emotionless - the consequence of not fully grieving.
I am avoiding everything that reminds of Rossella now - to give myself a break but I know that is not the best way.
So I think you are right - we have to cry as much as we have to. It has to come out. I think by holding it in I am just going to make myself sick.
Music really sets it off.
That's basically how my week has been.
Now I am crying again.
Happy you can go out for walks again - that is really important.
Take care of yourself and cherish all the love you receive.
I'm not good I've not been eating been really sick I've got to try soup or something. My body wants to do all its normal stuff like going to the toilet there is just nothing left in me And it huy like hell! Just wish the wife was here I'm doing the same as you hiding away from her at the moment x
I understand mate ..... I've just been for a long walk but it's useless trying to get away from it - it creeps up on you. Life is utterly meaningless without her. I wish I had spent every second with her - precious seconds. Will never be the same. I am recreating Rossella everywhere.
I think I have to keep letting the grief out - can't keep looking away anymore. We have to feel our way through this until we find our own answers.
Just got to stop beating myself up - i just feel so unworthy and feel guilty to even think about the possibility of enjoying my life again. Oh man it's all so screwed up.
Try to keep yourself up for the kids - children are so perceptive and pure in heart.
Hi mate the truth is I'm getting worse a lot worse I don't think I'll ever be able to understand why my wife was taken from me? I know that she had cancer and cancer killed her but I'm finding very hard to get my head around it i'm broken x
It's so hard - I mean trying to get your head around it. I do that all the time and I know it doesn't help me at all - I replay all the decisions we made and the paths we took. Would another path have saved her life? It's like russian roulette this cancer thing. If we had gone another way maybe Rossella would have passed several years ago or maybe cancer free.
As to why she was taken - who knows? That's probably for Rossella to discover and something I will not find the answer to. The main comfort is in knowing that it was only her body that was taken - just her physical manifestation in this world.
I just can't understand why it is taking so long to find a cure? A worldwide coordinated effort like with Covid can surely come up with solutions. It kills more than Covid.
We have 20 years of memories together and I am the one to keep those memories alive somehow someway.
You and your children will keep your wife alive and if you really take care of yourself and the children she will be so very very happy.
