hi i lost my dad 3yrs coming up . i was told 5 days before i got married he had terminal cancer. my wedding was one of the hardest days to get through as  he was in hospital . i came off my honeymoon and slept at my dads bedside as he deteriated day by day. i asked my dad if he could come back to me please try. my dad was the most precious caring kind loving man ive ever knew . my dad was my world he was everthing to me. he died 10 days after i got married. i cant ever be happy on my anniversary. i cant believe how much i miss him knowing i wont see him again. im a firm believer of life after death and i have seen my dad twice in my dreams when recently i was ill. he held my hand and told me it was not my time to go with him and he would always be beside me then he gave me messages to pass on to my mum and brother. i feel a bit relieved knowing hes with me but my heart aches because he was my world. people say you will get over it but i know i will carry the pain of loosing him always in my heart .

I'm so sorry. I can feel your pain. I really like the fact, though, that you're able to connect with your father in dreams. That was very nice to read. Your father sounds wonderful (like mine). Wishing you strength.

Thank you for your words of comfort . its not easy and im trying to cope with knowing its my dads 3yr of his death next week . its not easy as i dont like to burden my children with my problems ive always been such a jolly happy person . noone really knows how much i hurt inside . smiling on the outside but its breaking my heart inside just knowing id give anything for him to walk in my house and cuddle me with the words hello darling . i really feel for people in our situation. until you loose a parent then you know exactly how difficult it is . but keep strong and never forget those good memories .

Indeed - it's a nightmare situation. Somehow we're just supposed to "accept" that he won't walk into our homes and cuddle us. I think about cuddling my father every day. I probably think about him 100 times a day, certainly every 15 minutes or so. I become completely irrational and childish, wondering, for example, why we can't bring people back to life. Surely my father should be able to come back so I can cuddle him? 

I'm glad you have children to comfort you. I have ZERO interest in starting my own family or being with anybody (other than my dad).

Indeed - it's a nightmare situation. Somehow we're just supposed to "accept" that he won't walk into our homes and cuddle us. I think about cuddling my father every day. I probably think about him 100 times a day, certainly every 15 minutes or so. I become completely irrational and childish, wondering, for example, why we can't bring people back to life. Surely my father should be able to come back so I can cuddle him? 

I'm glad you have children to comfort you. I have ZERO interest in starting my own family or being with anybody (other than my dad).