My love goes out to yeh. I too looked after my partner until the very end when he went to a local hospice. He passed so peacefully which was a god send. I know what your going through as so many are. But know this you are not alone these are such awful times i wish i could give you words that make you feel better. But only time will do that. Losing someone should never be. But life has its own plan. We cant change it unfortunatley, we can be here for one another that i have come beleive. I send you all my love..god blessxxxx

Honestly my friend, my grief was a few weeks later, I thought it had started when Andrea was dying .But lately crying everyday wonder where is she, thank you my friend 

Your words mean so much making sense out of the mess I’m in But why !! I hate living without Andrea I wake up everyday at 4 o’clock in the morning with nothing to do always have done no alarm clock just do it but no reason to get up now , but my friend thanks xx

i know that feeling you are goin through. Your so angry lost and so alone

 You talk to loved  ones, family. But you always feel alone anyway. I feel that im in limbo. I know i cant do anything to bring my baby back but i know that he is still watching over me and our son. In a small way that gives me some sort of peace..please beleive your not alone what your feeling..xx take care  sweet.xxx

dear friend i just read your previous message. About cying later. I too was the same. I think personally for me i was just overwhelmned at thought he had gone sorting the funeral out and staying strong for my son everything just catches up on you and when it all seems back to normal so to speak this is when everything just hits you like a bolt of lightning. Then you have your feelings and hurt and anger, guilt everything just hits you.. xxx god bless.xxx

A little poem for you.. remember me with smiles not tears, for all the joy throughout the years. Recall the closeness that was ours a love a sweet as fragrant flowers. Dont dwell on thoughts that cause you pain we'll see each other once again, i am at peace try to believe it was my time i had to leave. But what a view i have from here i see your face an feel you near. I follow you throughout the day your not alone throughout the day. And when angels call...you will be right by my side till then i'll wait at heavens door,me and you forevermore.xxx

A little poem for you.. remember me with smiles not tears, for all the joy throughout the years. Recall the closeness that was ours a love a sweet as fragrant flowers. Dont dwell on thoughts that cause you pain we'll see each other once again, i am at peace try to believe it was my time i had to leave. But what a view i have from here i see your face an feel you near. I follow you throughout the day your not alone throughout the day. And when angels call...you will be right by my side till then i'll wait at heavens door,me and you forevermore.xxx