Devondog

Hi my heart goes  out to you it really really does, you just brought tears down my face as i felt your emotiions and pain.

I know you have been through such a lot , it felt like your beautiful wifes cancer was yours as well, and in a way it was. Ive said this to my family as we all suffer and struggle with how it affects not only our loved ones who have it, but all the family and friends too. 

My son was diognised wuth testicular cancer just before Christmas  just 34yrs of  age and just a couple if mths before his 35th birthday.  

It knocked me for six when he told ne. He had his testicle removed and had weekends of  chemotherapy staying  Frid/Mon   3 weeks in between each weekend sessions, which was na total of 3 weekend's. With 3 weeks inbetween each one   He has a call this Thursday to hopefully get some good news. I at the time said i wished it vwas me and not my son . I started checking my bressts and found a lump, and was diognosed with breast cancer. Its a vile horrible disease and it doesnt care about your age  or whos body it invades. 

Im soooo , so sorry for your loss, my husband commited suicide in 1997, we were 13yrs old when we got together, engaged at 18yrs old, engaged forn 6 yrs got Married at age 23  and was married  for 17yrs, we had 2 children  .. I know circumstsnces o f deaths are completly different but i do know how your feeling.  You say you ca nt go on, tha ts the bit that worries me, but youve done the right thing by opening up and talking about  your feelings . As someone who's been on the other side of a suicide  death it always worries me to hear those words i cant go on, believe  me when I say you can , its tough, its lonely and grief and loss  are not easy to cope with, but you are stronger than you realise.  Some people never  find the love you were lucjy enough to share with your beautiful wife, live on for  those memories and happy times you and her were lucky  enough to share and for her. You know if it was the other way around and you had passed overb and you  were looking down on her and her grief of losing you, what would you  be saying to your wife....youd  be saying  stay strong my love, its not your time to leave this  world, so live your life to the fullest, time will help, you will get through this. And im sure you know deep down your wifes spirit is looking down on you and saying the same. 

I hope i haven t overstepped the line in my reply  to you , its just something i have to do when i hear  or read those words ...i cant go on. 

Im here if you ever need a friend to chat  to .

Stay strong, you will get through this.X

Devondog

Hi my heart goes  out to you it really really does, you just brought tears down my face as i felt your emotiions and pain.

I know you have been through such a lot , it felt like your beautiful wifes cancer was yours as well, and in a way it was. Ive said this to my family as we all suffer and struggle with how it affects not only our loved ones who have it, but all the family and friends too. 

My son was diognised wuth testicular cancer just before Christmas  just 34yrs of  age and just a couple if mths before his 35th birthday.  

It knocked me for six when he told ne. He had his testicle removed and had weekends of  chemotherapy staying  Frid/Mon   3 weeks in between each weekend sessions, which was na total of 3 weekend's. With 3 weeks inbetween each one   He has a call this Thursday to hopefully get some good news. I at the time said i wished it vwas me and not my son . I started checking my bressts and found a lump, and was diognosed with breast cancer. Its a vile horrible disease and it doesnt care about your age  or whos body it invades. 

Im soooo , so sorry for your loss, my husband commited suicide in 1997, we were 13yrs old when we got together, engaged at 18yrs old, engaged forn 6 yrs got Married at age 23  and was married  for 17yrs, we had 2 children  .. I know circumstsnces o f deaths are completly different but i do know how your feeling.  You say you ca nt go on, tha ts the bit that worries me, but youve done the right thing by opening up and talking about  your feelings . As someone who's been on the other side of a suicide  death it always worries me to hear those words i cant go on, believe  me when I say you can , its tough, its lonely and grief and loss  are not easy to cope with, but you are stronger than you realise.  Some people never  find the love you were lucjy enough to share with your beautiful wife, live on for  those memories and happy times you and her were lucky  enough to share and for her. You know if it was the other way around and you had passed overb and you  were looking down on her and her grief of losing you, what would you  be saying to your wife....youd  be saying  stay strong my love, its not your time to leave this  world, so live your life to the fullest, time will help, you will get through this. And im sure you know deep down your wifes spirit is looking down on you and saying the same. 

I hope i haven t overstepped the line in my reply  to you , its just something i have to do when i hear  or read those words ...i cant go on. 

Im here if you ever need a friend to chat  to .

Stay strong, you will get through this.X