Earlier today my mum passed away. She was diagnosed with cancer ten weeks ago after feeling unwell for a few weeks. It's all happened so fast. Friday the hospice called because they noticed a change and said death was imminent, we said our goodbyes. She slipped into unconsciousness fully two nights ago. 

She was 59 years old and I wasn't ready to lose my mum, I have four young kids who doted on her (and she doted on).

I feel sick and honestly don't know how I'm going to live without her, all I want is my mum. I know I have to function and be there for the kids - but all I want is to just stop existing because it hurts so much. 

I've honestly never felt pain like this. 

please tell me it's normal and eases? Because I don't think I can live like this.