my husband died on the 24th October of lung and brain cancer.
we were together since I was 16 and he was 18, 33 years & 50 weeks and he was my soul mate truly. In August he kept complaining of a pain behind his shoulder blade, he never went to the doctors but this time he did. They sent him for X-rays and 2 hours later they phoned back to say we had an appointment made to see a specialis the day after. This is where our world fell apart because they told us he had stage 4 cancer of the lung. It got worse than that 10 days later he started to act strange, talking & acting out of character? I called our doctor who came to see him who agreed that his answers were not quite right. He was due at our local hospital the next day to have a biopsy to determine the type of cancer, while there they performed a brain scan. After 6 hours of waiting they pulled a curtain around his bed and told us that unfortunately the cancer had spread as he had frontal lobe leasions. I still replay that moment to myself and cannot believe it.
he underwent 3 lots of chemotherapy and immunotherapy but I lost my husband the day the cancer had spread. Two weeks after the brain scan my husband collapsed with sepsis, pneumonia and remained in hospital for 20 days under sedation and never regained consciousness. I slept at the side of his bed for those 20 days, I suctioned out his lungs constantly and kept a bedside vigil. It was til death do us part.
on the 7th November it was his funeral, on the 8th November it should have been our 35th anniversary of the day that we met. On the 24th November it should have been his 52nd birthday, then Christmas then New year where I will never have another year with him. Then 5th January was my 50th and our wedding anniversary.
I am so so lost with out him, he has been the only man for me since I was 16 years old and my life is just so hollow with out him
