Hi Beccabear

I was so sad to read your post. It's natural to feel lost & vulnerable when you've lost a parent. It sounds like your mum was a single parent. You're so young to have gone through such an emotional tragedy. I was 17 when i lost my dad. (Heart attack. He was 52). My mum was widowed at 52. She was strong. Just carried on. Now i'm in my 40's & my lovely mum died 2 yrs ago. Her anniversary's coming up next Monday & i'm dreading it. I'm having some friends round & we're going to eat loads of cream cakes. (She had a very sweet tooth!!) & drink wine. 
I was totally devastated when she died. I have arthritis & she was always there for me. I was virtually bedridden for a while & she was great. She was a retired nurse. So i was extra lucky having her as a mother. She died on a Saturday morning of cancer. She died 2 months after finding out she had the big c. I have a boyfriend. But we don't live together. My brother's been great. But he lives in the States. So the next day (Sunday). I felt so lost & lonely. My boyfriend's no good with emotions. I felt so desperate. I'm not a religious person. But i needed comfort & kindness. I felt so fragile. I looked up the prayer times of my local church & went. I went up some steep stairs. Some people greeted me at the top with a Bible. I literally fell into a woman's arms. I was overcome with grief. They were so kind. I told them my mother had just died. I cried through the whole service. I had masscara down to my knees!! But i knew these lovely people would understand. I went the next week too. But haven't been since. Although knowing the church is always there if you need it, helped me.

I aldo joined a bereavement group. Knowing other people know what you're going through & that you're not alone can help. Grief is a journey. I wish you well on yours. Being able to come on here day or night might help you. Don't leave your lovely mother behind. Bring her with you, next to you in your life. Good luck x

Hi Beccabear

I was so sad to read your post. It's natural to feel lost & vulnerable when you've lost a parent. It sounds like your mum was a single parent. You're so young to have gone through such an emotional tragedy. I was 17 when i lost my dad. (Heart attack. He was 52). My mum was widowed at 52. She was strong. Just carried on. Now i'm in my 40's & my lovely mum died 2 yrs ago. Her anniversary's coming up next Monday & i'm dreading it. I'm having some friends round & we're going to eat loads of cream cakes. (She had a very sweet tooth!!) & drink wine. 
I was totally devastated when she died. I have arthritis & she was always there for me. I was virtually bedridden for a while & she was great. She was a retired nurse. So i was extra lucky having her as a mother. She died on a Saturday morning of cancer. She died 2 months after finding out she had the big c. I have a boyfriend. But we don't live together. My brother's been great. But he lives in the States. So the next day (Sunday). I felt so lost & lonely. My boyfriend's no good with emotions. I felt so desperate. I'm not a religious person. But i needed comfort & kindness. I felt so fragile. I looked up the prayer times of my local church & went. I went up some steep stairs. Some people greeted me at the top with a Bible. I literally fell into a woman's arms. I was overcome with grief. They were so kind. I told them my mother had just died. I cried through the whole service. I had masscara down to my knees!! But i knew these lovely people would understand. I went the next week too. But haven't been since. Although knowing the church is always there if you need it, helped me.

I aldo joined a bereavement group. Knowing other people know what you're going through & that you're not alone can help. Grief is a journey. I wish you well on yours. Being able to come on here day or night might help you. Don't leave your lovely mother behind. Bring her with you, next to you in your life. Good luck x