Hi Linda, i lost my gorgeous mum yesterday morning at 3.40am and i dont know how i am going to continue with my life. I am 48/single/no children/no brothers or sisters. I have been living and caring for my mum since her diagnosis in March in my childhood family home. She has a labrador called Charlie and i have a Shih tzu called Louie and we are all together the 3 of us today just wandering around the house. The pain is unbearable and i have not stopped crying hardly since she went.......god only knows what i will do. I keep picking up her clothes and smelling them and i know it is so unhealthy but cant help myself....where are you in the UK? Do you have a family of your own? Sending you a heartfelt hug from someone who is a stranger but connected to you emotionally today.xxx

My mam died nearly 8 weeks ago after a 2 year battle with Cancer. She was my best friend as well as my mam.  I moved into the family home, when she first got diagnosed. She went through so much to live longer ( chemo, radiot-herapy, surgery).

I feel so lost and empty inside. I am single, no kids and don't feel I can carry on anymore. Suicide is in my thoughts alot. I just want to be back with my mam 

Hello GeorgiePaul,

I'm very sorry to hear how you're feeling and wanted to pass on my condolences on behalf of everyone on Cancer Chat. I can understand that you would feel lost and grief affects everyone in different ways so it's important to talk about these feelings with people you can trust. 

This community is always here if you need it and if you'd like further support Cruse bereavement helpline is 0808 808 1677 and free if you wish to speak to someone about your loss. If you're finding things overwhelming please reach out to someone or call Samaritans on 116 123, because you're not alone. 

I hope this helps in some way,

Moderator Anastasia

Oh GeordiePaul,

I'm so very sorry for your loss, I understand when you say that you just want your mum back.It's difficult to know what to say at this time, I think as well as emotional, the feelings can be almost physical, it's like you can feel your heart breaking.

It must have been such a great comfort for your mum to have you there with her, I can't imagine what courage she had to go through all the treatment and you being there, you couldn't have given anymore.

I'm writing this with pictures of my mum by my computer, I truly believe our loved ones somehow are with us in spirit, always in your heart, nothing will change that. The advice I will give is don't look far ahead, just take a day at a time or even an hour at a time; I was in a very dark place when mum died but we have to go on for our mum's, its so hard, the hardest thing you'll experience. But what you are feeling now, so many people on this forum will understand and probably if we were all together in a room now, there would be alot of hugs and tears that you can't stop. 

There are no magic words that will change how you're feeling now, nearly 4 years down the line, I want to tell you that somehow it does get easier, I still miss my mum, that doesn't go away but I try and use the strength and the courage that she showed to carry on, I don't want mum looking down on me, seeing me sad...she's seen that too many times but that's ok.

I hope that you have some family members close by or friends that can support you? I spoke to my GP and there are people like The Samaritans that can help. I know others here will come along and give wiser words than me.

Thinking of you at this difficult time, if you can, please post again so people here know how you're doing. Sending you all my strength.

Oh GeordiePaul,

I'm so very sorry for your loss, I understand when you say that you just want your mum back.It's difficult to know what to say at this time, I think as well as emotional, the feelings can be almost physical, it's like you can feel your heart breaking.

It must have been such a great comfort for your mum to have you there with her, I can't imagine what courage she had to go through all the treatment and you being there, you couldn't have given anymore.

I'm writing this with pictures of my mum by my computer, I truly believe our loved ones somehow are with us in spirit, always in your heart, nothing will change that. The advice I will give is don't look far ahead, just take a day at a time or even an hour at a time; I was in a very dark place when mum died but we have to go on for our mum's, its so hard, the hardest thing you'll experience. But what you are feeling now, so many people on this forum will understand and probably if we were all together in a room now, there would be alot of hugs and tears that you can't stop. 

There are no magic words that will change how you're feeling now, nearly 4 years down the line, I want to tell you that somehow it does get easier, I still miss my mum, that doesn't go away but I try and use the strength and the courage that she showed to carry on, I don't want mum looking down on me, seeing me sad...she's seen that too many times but that's ok.

I hope that you have some family members close by or friends that can support you? I spoke to my GP and there are people like The Samaritans that can help. I know others here will come along and give wiser words than me.

Thinking of you at this difficult time, if you can, please post again so people here know how you're doing. Sending you all my strength.