I'm so sorry to hear about your husband, mine is fighting cancer so I know what you have been through.   It is such early days since his death and it is too soon to think you can cope.  Everything you had and expected for your future is gone and grief consumes everything.  I have another friend on this forum whose husband died a couple of months ago, people expect her to be getting over it, she says she has lost her soul mate.   No one understands your grief so take it a day at a time.  Contact bereavement counselling when you feel up to it.  Speak to your GP and see if he can suggest something to help you at the moment.   Let people help you when they offer and talk frankly to your family, don't try and do it all on your own.  I'm sure others will contact you, pick the advice that suits your situation.  Thinking of you all.  Carol 

Hi Blubber

I lost my husband 12 April who was 53 we were together 29 years and all I can say is it's bloody hard and all you is  cry and shout and Wale, I have done that for 7 weeks , I miss him every day , but I am back at work keeping busy as before all I was doing was thinking and crying all day at least if I am in work , I just do it at night , but not so much, I have to keep busy so I have joined the gym so i am not home every night feeling sorry for myself, you need to occupy yourself , I know it's hard but it helps in baby steps of some sort of normality , I hope that helps , take care , Kirsty x

Yep your right exercise or walking in the park realy helps being in touch with nature deadens it for a while