Hello lovely, I'm the same as you, I lost my beautiful mum on the 7th of August to cancer, I was expecting her very first grandchild a grandson, we had been trying for 10 years for our little miracle, mum amd dad were over the moon mum was so happy she couldn't wait to meet him and have cuddles, the txts I have on my phone i read over and over,, I'm 31 and never thought I'd be losing mum at 52 and having my son in the same month, we brought the section forward to the 20th for mum as we knew she was very poorly but mum insisted she wasn't going anywhere, on the 6th of August I had the injection to help baby's lungs and then again on the 7th of August I messaged mum to say that the section would be the 20th of August buy txt back saying I think he will come before  i went to mums to see her as she was waiting for me she had been saying to dad how long is Sarah gonna be it's like she knew, at 8 14 I rang an ambulance as mums breathing was quite bad she had a the in place too but as she could still talk we could have an ambulance anyway the ambulance men arrived and wer3 angry that mum never had a nebulizer or any oxygen, she looked straight at dad and said I love you John, they put mum in wheelchair and I told her I was right behind her praying she would be okay to hold on to meet her grandson at 910 the ambulance man came out to me and said I'm sorry but yoir mum passed away in the ambulance I felt angry sad and want3d to scream but I kept calm, I let dad have a bit of time with her and then I went in with dad I closed her eyes looking at her lifeless body I felt a huge ache in my heart, my mum was gone and the one person I needed was my mum, I feel now that my son was sent to me to get through this difficult time, I have a piece of me missing my mum not a day goes by that I don't think about her, my son was born on the 20th of August and is absolutey beautiful and mum would be ever so proud, brings tears knowing that she will miss out on alot of things but I have to believe that mum is now my son's guardian angel and is watching over smiling, we found out our son is poorly too in September and also grandad passed away mums dad in September it's been such a tough year, I struggle on days but my little miracle keeps me going, we put a brave smile on coz we have too, I know things will never be the same again and I miss her so so much but I'm glad we have a site like this so we can share experiences much love xxx  

Dear Natisha

im sitting crying as on Saturday it’s 7 years since I lost my mum who was and is my best friend.

no day is easy but if I can say every sad memory is a good one as it shows that her life has made, and is making you who you are today.

all I can say is it will always hurt, but that means you care, which means her life was worthwhile making someone as wonderful as you.

please just think of something she taught you and showed you, and try share that with others.

that will make her proud.

i still try live up to all the good my mother did, and will never make it, but I do it in memory of her.

likewise , do all in memory of your mother

dont feel sad, feel proud that you are prolonging her legacy

your friend in cancer

greg

I miss my beautiful mum too. She died at home on 23 July it is now December and I few more lost than ever without her. My dog of 15 years died in September and I have just found out my poor dad has the same disgusting lung cancer stage 4 with secondaries last week. I just want my mum so much. I feel like life has come to a complete stop. 

Im john. Now 50 . Oct i lostmam. So so hard over christmass and at bells so hard. If anyone wants to talk im here. I understand so so much 

Hi, so sorry for your loss.

i lost my mum in january 2017 to bile duct cancer she died 11 weeks after being diagnoised.                               We were in total shock my mum was so brave and was only bothered about her family and how we would cope.  I like you told mum everything and i miss that so much. I do not remember her funeral i was in a daze. We spoke and lenght before she died and i treasure every word she said to me. The pain is unbareable at times but i try to think of our last conversations and how she told me to live my life and look after my dad and grandchildren whom she adored. I can not say it gets better with time but you learn to carry on it took me along time to pull myself together and try be the person mum wanted me to be. It is like a constant ache but it does get easier. I tell myself to do what mum wanted.

Try thinking of the good times im sure your mum would want the best for you and to live your life to the fullest

I lost my mum aged 63 on the 4th April 2018 to gallbladder cancer. Was handed a bit of paper a few weeks earlier by a nurse which read on it that she had cancer, nice way of telling somebody eh.

My parents were married 46 years and my dad is really struggling without her. Our lives will never be the same again. I spoke to my mum every single day on the phone, my mum practically raised my 2 boys as I'm a single parent with a full time job. She did everything for my sons and for my sister and myself. Her family meant the world to her. It's been 10 months now and I think about her every minute of every day. She was the rock in our family and life is just awful without her.

I'm angry that life was cruel to her, she didnt deserve it. She was a hardworking lovely wife and mother and granny, most of her married life was struggling with money issues, she lost many babies before I arrived in 1977, she got breast cancer in 1997 and survived that, and was clear of cancer for over 20 years until a few weeks before she died. I'm sorry for going on, I guess everyone's lives have good and bad times in them, my mum had lots of wonderful things happen to her too of course!!, life wasn't all bad. I'm just angry that she had to fight and work hard for the simple things in life. I miss her so much.

In a few days my mum will be gone a year. She donated her body for testing, and the hospital have recently released her body and her cremation is this weekend. I think that I've cried every day for last two months, though, and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier for me. I don't respect anyone at work now and only really like to chat with two close friends, although I haven't discussed my feelings about my mum. Sometimes I wish that I could fast forward a year and hopefully I'd feel a bit better. It's difficult to care about anything at the moment.

I miss my mum every day. She was the best, and ultimately the bravest person I've known.

I know how you feel. My mums one year anniversary is 7th March and I’m dreading it. I found her passed away and every day I’m reminded of it when I drive the same road to work. I do think it’s wonderful your mum donated her body for testing. I wish we’d considered that. I found mums cremation really hard and I still struggle looking at the urn with her ashes. I just can’t relate that to my mum who was so full of life before the cancer took hold and she got so ill and thin. 

I’d recommend talking to your friends if you can. Taking to my husband and my friend - who lost her dad so understood-helped me so much and got me through Xmas, her birthday etc.  

Sendings hugs, it’s so tough

xxx

Hello everyone im new to this forum ,my mum passed on 19th this month ,she had stage 4 lung cancer besides not eating for yrs on top,i dont know how to cope i feel guilty on alot of things especially havin to put her in nursing home ,i had no other options  she died ther.I just feel like i want to be with her i cant breath im so lost

Hey Natisha

Im so sorry to hear your sad news. I’m feeling EXACTLY the same as you at the moment, having lost my mum suddenly to ovarian cancer nearly 4 weeks ago. 

I don’t want to see anyone, and every time I try to speak to someone about my feelings, I just break down. I feel so alone! Mums are absolutely irreplaceable and unless you’ve lost your mum, I don’t think people can truly understand how we’re feeling right now :( 

If you’d like to chat, feel free to add me as a friend on here xx