I lost my mum aged 63 on the 4th April 2018 to gallbladder cancer. Was handed a bit of paper a few weeks earlier by a nurse which read on it that she had cancer, nice way of telling somebody eh.

My parents were married 46 years and my dad is really struggling without her. Our lives will never be the same again. I spoke to my mum every single day on the phone, my mum practically raised my 2 boys as I'm a single parent with a full time job. She did everything for my sons and for my sister and myself. Her family meant the world to her. It's been 10 months now and I think about her every minute of every day. She was the rock in our family and life is just awful without her.

I'm angry that life was cruel to her, she didnt deserve it. She was a hardworking lovely wife and mother and granny, most of her married life was struggling with money issues, she lost many babies before I arrived in 1977, she got breast cancer in 1997 and survived that, and was clear of cancer for over 20 years until a few weeks before she died. I'm sorry for going on, I guess everyone's lives have good and bad times in them, my mum had lots of wonderful things happen to her too of course!!, life wasn't all bad. I'm just angry that she had to fight and work hard for the simple things in life. I miss her so much.

In a few days my mum will be gone a year. She donated her body for testing, and the hospital have recently released her body and her cremation is this weekend. I think that I've cried every day for last two months, though, and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier for me. I don't respect anyone at work now and only really like to chat with two close friends, although I haven't discussed my feelings about my mum. Sometimes I wish that I could fast forward a year and hopefully I'd feel a bit better. It's difficult to care about anything at the moment.

I miss my mum every day. She was the best, and ultimately the bravest person I've known.

I know how you feel. My mums one year anniversary is 7th March and I’m dreading it. I found her passed away and every day I’m reminded of it when I drive the same road to work. I do think it’s wonderful your mum donated her body for testing. I wish we’d considered that. I found mums cremation really hard and I still struggle looking at the urn with her ashes. I just can’t relate that to my mum who was so full of life before the cancer took hold and she got so ill and thin. 

I’d recommend talking to your friends if you can. Taking to my husband and my friend - who lost her dad so understood-helped me so much and got me through Xmas, her birthday etc.  

Sendings hugs, it’s so tough

xxx

I know how you feel. My mums one year anniversary is 7th March and I’m dreading it. I found her passed away and every day I’m reminded of it when I drive the same road to work. I do think it’s wonderful your mum donated her body for testing. I wish we’d considered that. I found mums cremation really hard and I still struggle looking at the urn with her ashes. I just can’t relate that to my mum who was so full of life before the cancer took hold and she got so ill and thin. 

I’d recommend talking to your friends if you can. Taking to my husband and my friend - who lost her dad so understood-helped me so much and got me through Xmas, her birthday etc.  

Sendings hugs, it’s so tough

xxx