Hello lovely, I'm the same as you, I lost my beautiful mum on the 7th of August to cancer, I was expecting her very first grandchild a grandson, we had been trying for 10 years for our little miracle, mum amd dad were over the moon mum was so happy she couldn't wait to meet him and have cuddles, the txts I have on my phone i read over and over,, I'm 31 and never thought I'd be losing mum at 52 and having my son in the same month, we brought the section forward to the 20th for mum as we knew she was very poorly but mum insisted she wasn't going anywhere, on the 6th of August I had the injection to help baby's lungs and then again on the 7th of August I messaged mum to say that the section would be the 20th of August buy txt back saying I think he will come before  i went to mums to see her as she was waiting for me she had been saying to dad how long is Sarah gonna be it's like she knew, at 8 14 I rang an ambulance as mums breathing was quite bad she had a the in place too but as she could still talk we could have an ambulance anyway the ambulance men arrived and wer3 angry that mum never had a nebulizer or any oxygen, she looked straight at dad and said I love you John, they put mum in wheelchair and I told her I was right behind her praying she would be okay to hold on to meet her grandson at 910 the ambulance man came out to me and said I'm sorry but yoir mum passed away in the ambulance I felt angry sad and want3d to scream but I kept calm, I let dad have a bit of time with her and then I went in with dad I closed her eyes looking at her lifeless body I felt a huge ache in my heart, my mum was gone and the one person I needed was my mum, I feel now that my son was sent to me to get through this difficult time, I have a piece of me missing my mum not a day goes by that I don't think about her, my son was born on the 20th of August and is absolutey beautiful and mum would be ever so proud, brings tears knowing that she will miss out on alot of things but I have to believe that mum is now my son's guardian angel and is watching over smiling, we found out our son is poorly too in September and also grandad passed away mums dad in September it's been such a tough year, I struggle on days but my little miracle keeps me going, we put a brave smile on coz we have too, I know things will never be the same again and I miss her so so much but I'm glad we have a site like this so we can share experiences much love xxx  

Hello lovely, I'm the same as you, I lost my beautiful mum on the 7th of August to cancer, I was expecting her very first grandchild a grandson, we had been trying for 10 years for our little miracle, mum amd dad were over the moon mum was so happy she couldn't wait to meet him and have cuddles, the txts I have on my phone i read over and over,, I'm 31 and never thought I'd be losing mum at 52 and having my son in the same month, we brought the section forward to the 20th for mum as we knew she was very poorly but mum insisted she wasn't going anywhere, on the 6th of August I had the injection to help baby's lungs and then again on the 7th of August I messaged mum to say that the section would be the 20th of August buy txt back saying I think he will come before  i went to mums to see her as she was waiting for me she had been saying to dad how long is Sarah gonna be it's like she knew, at 8 14 I rang an ambulance as mums breathing was quite bad she had a the in place too but as she could still talk we could have an ambulance anyway the ambulance men arrived and wer3 angry that mum never had a nebulizer or any oxygen, she looked straight at dad and said I love you John, they put mum in wheelchair and I told her I was right behind her praying she would be okay to hold on to meet her grandson at 910 the ambulance man came out to me and said I'm sorry but yoir mum passed away in the ambulance I felt angry sad and want3d to scream but I kept calm, I let dad have a bit of time with her and then I went in with dad I closed her eyes looking at her lifeless body I felt a huge ache in my heart, my mum was gone and the one person I needed was my mum, I feel now that my son was sent to me to get through this difficult time, I have a piece of me missing my mum not a day goes by that I don't think about her, my son was born on the 20th of August and is absolutey beautiful and mum would be ever so proud, brings tears knowing that she will miss out on alot of things but I have to believe that mum is now my son's guardian angel and is watching over smiling, we found out our son is poorly too in September and also grandad passed away mums dad in September it's been such a tough year, I struggle on days but my little miracle keeps me going, we put a brave smile on coz we have too, I know things will never be the same again and I miss her so so much but I'm glad we have a site like this so we can share experiences much love xxx