Hi there ... So sorry you lost your mum to this cancer that has no compassion , no empathy ... 

But please go easy on yourself as your in those first raw months ...  Missing someone that much, just shows how blessed you were to have such a wonderful mum in your life ....  So many will never know that love ... My mum was my best friend too ... And an amazing nanny to all her grandkids ...

There is no easy way through ... It's all part of the grieving process ... I'm 29 years after mum mum left , and although you do get used to them not being around, you never stop missing them ... I love an old buddists saying ... Don't cry because you lost someone .... Smile because you were blessed to have had them in your life ...

I know if my mum looked down to see me crying, she would be broken hearted ... So I live my life in the way she'd have wanted ... I don't think any mum would want to see their baby hurting so very much ...

She hasn't left you, she's right there in your heart ...  Chrissie xx

Exactly how I feel about my mum, right down to not crying , that would break my mum seeing that also. You were also very lucky to have a great mum.

hey luke, listen mate the is the first time i logged back in on here since my last post above, i want to try and be there for who ever needs a chat a a listening ear in times when thinking about things gets a little to much, trust me its still the same for me, i just had to lean back on my sofa and take a minute before writing back to ya,

just lately i started to piece myself back together as the last thing mum said to me was mark keep going to uni and do what you want makes you happy, ya see mate many years ago i got in with the wrong crowed and got myself an addiction, thats well in the past but i always spoke to mum about things and listened and finally i got clean and began to help others, i now made that my full time mission and like i promised mum im now in my second term of uni and doing good. i found the more i achieve the more i know mum will be looking down and pushing me that ikle bit more, some day i will av a person sat in front of me with their head in their hands asking for my help and i will do all i can to help them knowing that even though mum wasnt here she helped me and pushed me to get on and help myself which in turn will help others, thats what life is all about mate, we all only have one mum but that mum is what makes us and carrys on making us even when she became an angel, shes still my mum and shes still helping me to help others,

LUKE...... im about if you ever need a chat , if you post a few words on here it will let me know, and i will get back to you just as i have done above mate..

trust me you also "have" a great mum, keep moving forward mate and she will continue to be real proud of you , mums dont always tell us how proud they are of us but you will always feel it in your heart mate i promise you...

remember the abouve "ALWAYS HERE"

Mark... 

hey luke, listen mate the is the first time i logged back in on here since my last post above, i want to try and be there for who ever needs a chat a a listening ear in times when thinking about things gets a little to much, trust me its still the same for me, i just had to lean back on my sofa and take a minute before writing back to ya,

just lately i started to piece myself back together as the last thing mum said to me was mark keep going to uni and do what you want makes you happy, ya see mate many years ago i got in with the wrong crowed and got myself an addiction, thats well in the past but i always spoke to mum about things and listened and finally i got clean and began to help others, i now made that my full time mission and like i promised mum im now in my second term of uni and doing good. i found the more i achieve the more i know mum will be looking down and pushing me that ikle bit more, some day i will av a person sat in front of me with their head in their hands asking for my help and i will do all i can to help them knowing that even though mum wasnt here she helped me and pushed me to get on and help myself which in turn will help others, thats what life is all about mate, we all only have one mum but that mum is what makes us and carrys on making us even when she became an angel, shes still my mum and shes still helping me to help others,

LUKE...... im about if you ever need a chat , if you post a few words on here it will let me know, and i will get back to you just as i have done above mate..

trust me you also "have" a great mum, keep moving forward mate and she will continue to be real proud of you , mums dont always tell us how proud they are of us but you will always feel it in your heart mate i promise you...

remember the abouve "ALWAYS HERE"

Mark...