I' sorry I haven' replied sooner. It' just been hard to reply as my emoions are all over the place.

I' sorry for your loss too.

Still struggle to get motivated to do anything.

I don' like being around people. And prefer to stay around my house and garden.

I cried so much the other day because I wanted to call my mum so bad.

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Hi I'm new to this site, but feel this is the only place where how I feel seems shared by others. I lost my mum a year ago, she was my best friend my soul mate and another mum to my children. We only live 2 doors away from her home. I also don't hardly go out any more or want to mix with any one. My friends have stopped trying to get hold of me any more, because I wouldn't answer the door or calls.....all I can say is some days are better than others, the pain never goes away, but sometimes we laugggh at the things we got up to with the kids, my kids and I created a memory jar filled with amazing times we shared and things that she said. I feel I will never get over the pain as it's still as raw aS the day she told me she was dying...I prayed so hard, begged god to take me instead as she was such a better person than me.....I have to admit if I didn't have children I would probably end my life as my  pain is unbearable. But I need to be there for them as the pain of loosing 2 people u love is something I will never put them  through if I can help it....I just take each day at a time, some days I'm fine and others not so great. My mum was everything to me losing her was the worst moment of my life, and iv bin through a lot. I just try and remember the pain I feel is because of the amazing mum, nan, friend and wife she was, and that if I didn't miss her then she wasn't that significant in our lives.....this is the first time iv actually shared how I feel to anyone, and broke down even writing this...

Wow I completely get where you are coming from. I lost my mum 4 months ago and the pain I feel is unbearable. She was my best friend, the person I got advice from, my go to for everything. I spoke to her every day and I have a huge void in my life now she is gone.  I feel as though I will never truly be happy again without her. Some days I feel like I can't breath...I still can't believe she has gone and I will never see her again. I can't imagine living the rest of my life without her .  I still feel shocked when I think she is dead....grief is the worst pain ever and I feel like no one understands.

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This is my first time here. I’m really struggling. My mum died last July. She had fought cancer for ten years and we thought she was doing well. Then she started to struggle with her sight and they realised it had moved to her brain, The end was horrible. I can’t get it out of my head. I held her hand. I’m on my own. My daughter is 

rightly getting on with her life. But I’m lying here in the dark feeling so very low and not knowing how to stop the pain. I can’t think what the point is any more. 

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It’s so so hard. But, we must accept that all of us will die. But, losing my mum is the hardest thing ever. I’m a social worker and have to deal with loss every day but, nothing compares to this. X

It’s so so hard. But, we must accept that all of us will die. But, losing my mum is the hardest thing ever. I’m a social worker and have to deal with loss every day but, nothing compares to this. X