I'm so glad I've read this, I lost my mum last year on 30th June, I honestly can't remember much about her at all which breaks my heart because we were so ridiculously close. It's such a weird feeling isn't it?! I try so hard to go over in my head what her mannerisms were like and what she sounded like and I just can't imagine it anymore which is so bizarre! I thought it was just my way of dealing with things as I tend to just stick things at the back of my mind. 

I'm so sorry for your loss and hope that you're as ok as you can be x 

Hi Sarah,

First I am so sorry for your loss. I am glad (maybe the wrong word) that I am not the only one that feels the same way as I was and am feeling guilty over it. It is a very weird feeling indeed and just so hard to understand. Like you I was very close to my mother, she was my best friend and we made a lifetime of memories yet I just can't picture them when I try to remember. It's like my mind has put her in a little box and has hidden it in order to try and shield me from the pain of losing her. I am hoping, and hope the same for you as well, that in time we will remember all the memories we made with our moms.

If you ever want to talk then please feel free to friend me and send messages.. i also hope you are as good as you can be x

God Bless

Antoni x

Hi Antoni, 

Thank you, i've just added you as a friend :) 

Yes its very bizare, I think about mum constantly throughout the day but I can only remember what she was like just before she died but not when she was her usual self. Sometimes I say something and someone will tell me that I sounded just like mum then and I stand there trying so hard to remember her doing that and I cant!
Do you have pictures/videos of your mum? Mum hated pictures so we only have a few pictures and no videos which I regret so much! x

Hi Antoni, 

Thank you, i've just added you as a friend :) 

Yes its very bizare, I think about mum constantly throughout the day but I can only remember what she was like just before she died but not when she was her usual self. Sometimes I say something and someone will tell me that I sounded just like mum then and I stand there trying so hard to remember her doing that and I cant!
Do you have pictures/videos of your mum? Mum hated pictures so we only have a few pictures and no videos which I regret so much! x