how is it even possible mum won't be here to celebrate her birthday on Monday she would have 57 and she s not her to celebrate my brothers birthday on Tuesday the big 21 and hasn't got mum to spend it with it's been just over 5 months since we lost her I find it hard to do anything just want it all to go away and gave her back before she was held hostage in her own body for 10 years with different types of cancers I still see my robin following me just can't get over that shes not here after all this time feels like she s in hospital and I'm not allowed to see her does anyone else feel this way that has lost a loved one my partner is taking me on holiday I think he's holding it will help me to get away from everything I'll never get over this she was my life the last 6 years caring for I gained a best friend I could talk to about everything and now I have no one to talk to or have a cry with
