My mum died last year 8 days before my 14th birthday and in two months it will be a year and I honestly just don't see a point in life without her 

Hi lovely, 

This is Marie, the 27 year old who was about to lose her mom 2 days before her birthday. It turned out that my mom waited until my day, and we had a little party at the hospice while she rested (she was unconscious for about 4 days, but I could feel that she was there with us) and died 2h after 12am.

Let me tell you that ever since I lost her, life seems a bit hard, but there is much more hope out there than the one I had before I lost her. It's like her spirit has mixed with mine and she has given me a new type of vitality. A friend of mine said something to me that really stuck: she is now eternal. There is nothing that can harm her now. Nothing can taint her memory. She will now live in you and, if you believe in anything, please believe that the love your mom has for you transcends life on this planet and any other separating force. No one's telling you not to be sad because that'd be really toxic, I'm saying: allow yourself to feel the way you feel, but then dust your back and start working towards becoming the person that you dream of being... And make her proud. The same way you'd try to do if she were alive.

There is hope, believe me.

Also, as a little tip, don't ever stop writing to her. I have a notebook where I write the things that I would say to her and in my mind I imagine her reading it all from above. Maybe it'll help. 

Sending love and strength xxx

Yes but it doesn’t get easier all I want to do is join my mum she was my everything I lay on her bed talk to her make her cups of tea still feel her hot water bottle take a flask of tea to her grave everyday for her all I think about is just join her so I can be with her again everyone saying I’m mad anyway 

Yes but it doesn’t get easier all I want to do is join my mum she was my everything I lay on her bed talk to her make her cups of tea still feel her hot water bottle take a flask of tea to her grave everyday for her all I think about is just join her so I can be with her again everyone saying I’m mad anyway