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Hi again Paul,

just scrolled down and saw the other pic of Sheba and your post.  She really is a gorgeous girl. Dice is a good lad and I seem to be concerned for his well being, I sometimes forget he came from up North where is a bit hotter, therefore used to the heat, but he is 11 now.  He used to be a dab hand at killing snakes but don't know how his reflexes would be nowadays, but no snakes down here thankfully.

I think we all try to help each other as best we can and that is a good thing .

Kids have asked me to make a speech at their wedding 13.03 tears running down my face (again) at thought of it, not because I am scared of doing it , but don't want to lose control on their special day.  Sandy would have loved so much to have been there, but we knew last July it was not meant to be. Guess I will just need to take a deep breaths, deliver my speech welcome this beautiful girl officially into the family, my daughter in law, soul mate of my son and friend to me and hope I hold it together,..  I will be fortunate to have mum and 2 sisters with me do if falter will have back up.  But I am confident I will be ok. Have come so far being a tough little cookie, so I will continue.

Had 2 mates from Scotland ring me tdy which was great.  Have known them for 40 years  , since secondary school.  How wonderful we are still in touch.  True friends indeed.  Ok Paul, will sign off 2.45 am here, can't ring my sis till Scottish rugby match finished or she would have my guts  for garters.  Big hugs to Sheba, she is so cute, and guess you can have one too.  Best wishes Kathy

lHi Kathy, really sorry how the last posting from me finished, think it might be me and not the chat line program, Dice what a cracking name, bet he was mustard in his prime, but he looks chilled, but glad the old chap is still doing well and the heat is no problem for him. You are so right about our pets, really don't know what I would do without Sheba, only had her four months but we are so attached, Dawn would love her too, even think Dawn had a hand in our coming together. Was thinking the other day she is the only other girl apart from Dawn who I have told I love them, but she is so good for me. What an amazing lady you must be, after a short time you have the strength to stand up and speak to an audience, I couldn't do it even now after two and half years plus. Don't think your children would have asked you if they didn't think you could do it, they must be so proud of you as you are of them. I know for a fact your hubby will be with you, saying go on Kathy you will be ok. Woops, just had a few tears thinking of it, told you I was a wuss. 

Really do think it is great what you are going to do, I think the wedding attendees will be in tears before you, I do wish you all the very best, and truly hope the wedding day is just the best ever. Well done, go for it.

It is just great you still chat to your friends in Scotland, do you find you go back to your Scottish language or are you Aussy through and through.have they been to visit, bet they wouldn't want to go home if they did, been chatting by email to the Daughter in law in Adelaide, she is working really hard at work and the grandchildren are doing so well, the eldest grandchild Cianan is twenty in May, and he has is own flat, now I do feel old.

Take care of yourself Kathy and write that speech, kind regards Paul

Hi Paul, managed to lose last message to you.  How dippy am I? Don't answer that one....
Just been into bedroom to check on dog, cooler going there... To find he was elsewhere....all good now he is on waterbed enjoying the cool.  
I feel good tdy, Wednesday was a bit of a downer but have pepped up again.  Went to babysit grandson on Thurs as he was sick and DIL started  new course that day so had to attend.  It's nice to feel needed/wanted and do so much enjoy time with littlies.
3 weeks tdy they are wed, how exciting.
Don't say you are a wuss.  You are someone who feels compassion and empathy for a fellow human, that makes you a kind man.
I still speak with a strong Scottish/ Irish accent but am sure it will broaden when with my family.  When with the Aussies I try and tone it down.  Have finished raking front lawn to remove plugs after coring due to blister, but woo hoo all done so now am applying gypsum and fertiliser and watering in.  Have saved myself $250 by doing myself.
 
Bit of a hot one tomorrow 40, son calling in so have a few heavy lifting man jobs for him to do.  Have to utilise my resources haha and plan accordingly.,    I do enjoy my time with him.  I have always called him the light of my life, born 10 weeks prem, only 1020 grams, has turned out to be a strapping 6 foot 3 like his dad, but gee would like to see him fatten up a wee bit. He is very lean.  Maybe I am just jealous....but seriously am so lucky to have him in my life, DIL was so impressed when she saw the bond we have, as in see how a man treats his mother therefore how he will treat you.
Anyway enough dribbling from me Paul.  Much planned for the weekend?
Best wishes and hugs to you both
Kathy x
 

Hi Kathy, sorry you had a bad day, but glad your feeling better now, not doing to good myself, got tooth ache and a nasty cold, only had them a couple of days and had enough all ready, shouldn't grummble though I don't get many colds at all and the tooth is lose now so I may take some pain killers or a few beers and get it out, if all fails it's off to the dentist, but he won't touch it while I have a cold. It is great looking after the grandchildren isn't it, had George Thursday, but it was raining all day so we did a bit of drawing, a bit of training with Sheba and a couple of DVDs. Been out today, had an haircut and bought caster sugar, flour so we can do a little baking next time he's here, going to practice first though. Be glad when it warms up then we shall be out with Sheba and have a few picnics. The wedding is coming round fast isn't it, it will be here before you know it. How's you're speech coming along, I really do think your so brave, but do sincerely wish you all the very best. It sounds amazing what you are doing with your garden, bet you are really proud of yourself and quite right too. It will be nice when we can do a bit in the garden it's either too cold or to wet. It's so nice to hear the bond you have with your son, and how proud you are of him, the way he treats you though is down to yourself and hubby for giving the guidance and having the respect. Our youngest son is great just wish the eldest two had turned out a bit better. The weekend is going to be taken up by a bit of cleaning, washing the clothes, out with Sheba, going to help the youngest son fit new taps with shut off valves in their downstais loo, but waiting for the call as he has got to take George to football training. I am still teaching myself to play the guitar,, Sheba has not been howling yet so think it's coming along fine .ok it's time to try a bit of baking, don't know if I will let Shba have any cake as the vet bills are very expensive. Really do enjoy our chats, thank you for taking time out for me, take great care of yourself, Kind regards Paul.

Hi Paul,
Oil of cloves or cloves may assist with toothache, but by the time you get this, problem may be solved.  Like your suggestion of a few beers to help out.
Son had his bucks night in town (scary place to be) but has rung me to say safe back in hotel phew!!!  Sometimes you can be in wrong place at wrong time and end up in trouble.  Plan initially was to sleep over here but got a cheap rate for hotel and could allow him to have a few drinks.  Hotel has a pool, I have a bath?!!
Had fun night as little sis face timed me, first time ever, getting more comp savvy as time goes on.  Was a good/different experience, but good to see her.
Went out last night to a girlfriends house for a meal and a few drinks.  Dice was ok next door, had a ball and left cat inside with radio and light on for comfort.  Had a sleepover and was up at 5.30 am.  Yes am an early bird. Girlfriend suggested she comes round here vacuums and cleans bathrooms and I do 3 hrs gardening for her, sounds good to me.
Today even though was 40 gypsumed lawn and watered half of front lawn.    Managed to vacuum though will honestly admit indoors is not my forte.  Would rather be outside in fresh air. 
Think I will need to buy some fresh flour for baking as think what I had will be past due date, that's life , into the compost will go , waste not want not.
Off to visit in laws on Tues again only 27 forecast, bit sad when they are better able to communicate with me than sis in law who is their daughter, they are probably too alike.
Just going through mobile deleting old messages.  In a way it's good that we don't know what life has mapped out for us.  We have to react/adapt as we do.  If someone had forecast to me 12 months ago where I would be today I would have told them they were bonkers. How quickly life changed.  Once again reiteritating we have to make the most of each day, the birdsong, the new growth, the weeds in my garden that I will remove, sorry Paul not preaching to you, but to my self.
Your cakes should be ok for Sheba, a little bit is ok as long as not chocolate??
Actually have some recipes for healthy dog snack....just came to mind, prev dog kelpie required healthy dog biscs.  Sheba should be ok on normal stuff.
Speech coming on ok,  will have to be sober when delivering it.  still have to find an outfit, will get there, wish the kids would let me wear vesty top,shorts and flip flops( too much Aussie influence). But alas will dress appropriately. Also mother won't let me wear anything that shows too much cleavage in her opinion.  Have been out when she has heightened my neckline with a nappy pin!!!  She is a hoot.
How did you do with the new taps at your sons?  I am afraid some men jobs are over my head..
All the best, time for bed, take care
Hugs to you and Sheba,  Kathy x
 

Hi there Kathy, you do make me smile with you humour and quips, the one where you say being dippy then immediatley say "dont answer that" also the hotel has a pool " i have a bath" you have a honest and down to earth sense of homour which is probably why your in-laws like to speak to you about certain things. Again another smile, Heightend your neckline with a nappy pin, bless her, 

Wow you are an early bird, 5.30am but its so nice you have time out for yourself, and even hlp out friends in their garden, you really do love your gardening dont you, and sounds like you do a profesional job, bet it looks amazing, I bet it was wonderful to see your little sister on face time it is amazing isnt it technology, brings people together, and helps with seperation. My grandsons love face time, they can go on forever, but get carried away sometimes wanting to say their bit and interupting each other.

So glad your son's Buck night went well, they can so easliy get out of hand can't they, it was so thoughtful and kind of him to call you and put your mind at ease, what a great guy.

I do understand about life, and once again you are right, but it is hard to carry on even though we know we understand more than most how precious life is and each minute of each day has to be treasured, but to be truely honest, and I know you have helped alot it feels like an existance rather than a life, i feel ashamed, guilty, embarrassed, what ever you want to call it, every time i laugh out loud the thought is there. But as i have said before since chatting to you on this line i have got better in dealing with it. I am making progress, and thats down to you so again i would like to thank you so much, hope i dont set you off when i say whats on my mind, i would never want to halt  or slow your progess with getting on with your life after your deverstating loss.

The sons taps are complete, a minor adjustment due to not having the correct fittings but we have had a chat and he now know what is required, but the taps are fitted and the water is flowing.

Got my skydiving jump date today, 6-5-15, 0930 hours so just hope the weather holds out.

Thank you Kathy, Take great care, you are a very special person with special values, Kind regards Paul x

Hi there again Kathy, sorry about my last post to you, I am offloading my thoughts to you but you have enough to think about with your son's wedding coming up, with all you have to think about in preparing yourself for that magical day it is wrong for me to burden you, I am truely sorry, please forgive me, I must think more before I type away. Once again, so sorry, take care, kind regards Paul x 

Hi Paul,
Don't be a plonker (have watched too many episodes of only fools and horses).  You have not burdened me at all.  
This is the place to offload and goodness knows I have done enough of it.
Just composing a longer message so bear with me.
Kathy 
 

Hi Paul,
Hope you are feeling better.  How is the tooth?  Just tried to send you another pic of Dice but it's not working or it's just the operators lack of know how...
Glad you got the tap issue fixed.
Visited the in laws tdy which was nice, we turned TV on at 3 pm to watch the chase and the 2 of them promptly fell asleep.  Gee I must be really boring company....
Took an equagel cushion up for MIL which prevents bedsores ( I had two for hubby) as used on recliner, outdoor chair and wheelchair and thought would save me running from one to the next when he was still able to walk)
As she has bedsore on heel from hospitalisation I thought we could avoid one ( on bot) due to sitting too long as she gets up during the night and sleeps in recliner.
They mentioned they wanted to get her a stick, I smiled and said got one you can have, then mentioned they were thinking of getting a circulation booster for feet, guess what.... I smiled and said got one you can have.  So a few goodies I will take up on next visit.  
When I got home ( been away for 8 hours) Dice came in and promptly fell asleep on bed.
MIL has issue with swollen legs weeping after hip replacement.  She is not heavy so a vein or cardio issue.
DIL (to be) will drop in on them on Thurs for a visit.    She lives a further 40 km away from them.  She is a good girl.
Tomorrow I will look for dress to wear at wedding. 11 more sleeps till family arrive.  I feel like a kid on countdown to Christmas.  Oh my goodness there will be some cup pas and talking around the kitchen table.  I feel the kitchen is the hub of the home and have great memories of being a child with a Rayburn in the kitchen which you could cook on and also heated the water for baths.
Good on you for having date for skyjump.  I think you are very brave.  I couldn't do it.  I get wobbly stepping on a kitchen stool.
How's Sheba? Does she snore?
Went to bed last night and cat turned on touch lamp, little minx and after getting his cuddles snuggled down on bed but I unfortunately couldn't reach to turn it off. Grrrrr.
Your weather should be improving now.  Do people have rain water tanks over there?
I don't know how to put it.  To lose a loved one is so cruel, but we must go on.  It's like part of you is missing and it is, but we have to be strong and keep on going.  We have to be thankful we knew that person and are so much enriched end by that experience, and they have helped us in maturing into the people we are now.  I don't know if this making any sense...but we have to keep plodding on and we do.
Cat becoming quite vocal these days, it's 1.45 am and no way can he com into letting him out.  Good try though.
Well Paul, I will bid you goodnight and head to bed soon.  All the best
Kathy x

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