Hang in there. I lost my mum in March and my dad in August this year to terminal illnesses. The important thing to hold onto is you were there for your dad until the end. Right there beside him when he needed you most. 

I've found writing letters to my mum, building memory boxes and reading up on the journey of grief helps. I miss chatting to my mum every day, getting off the train and calling her up.

It will take time. So much time to heal. But we will. Sending my thoughts to you as know what you are feeling. Just take care of yourself x

Thank you for replying to my thread I know I’m not the only one going through this but sometimes it does feel like it doesn’t it so sorry for your losses 

and I’m so grateful for you reaching out on this thread it’s nice to be able to just write what your feeling and know there are others feeling the same 

sending love your way of feel you’d like to remain on this thread for a chat I’d love that 

take care x. Laura 

Hey Laura

It is incredibly hard isn't it. I think I am still very much in shock that both parents aren't around anymore. It is very lonely and some days feel unbearable. Especailly if you see someone that reminds you of your mum or dad. Do you siblings you are close to?

I am really glad there is this chat thread qs hard to chat with close onea that havent been through it.

Sending hugs

Annie x

Morning Annie 

I hope you are doing ok? 

A couple days ago a friend lost their fight with leukaemia  at just 29 years young

I honestly cannot stand the word Cancer it makes me so angry. 

I know what you mean about seeing someone who remind you of them my dad has brothers who look and sound just like him so it’s hard when I do see them 

Not to mention when you see a random person and mistake them for being them it’s crazy what tricks your mind can play on you isn’t it.

my sister is close by but like you say it’s easier talking to a stranger on a forum than it is talking to family as my sister is so broken also and I just don’t want to upset her anymore than she is which is why I’m so grateful for this forum  as I’m not one for talking out loud about my emotions at all. 

I hope you are doing ok I’m always just a chat away x 

laura 

Morning Annie 

I hope you are doing ok? 

A couple days ago a friend lost their fight with leukaemia  at just 29 years young

I honestly cannot stand the word Cancer it makes me so angry. 

I know what you mean about seeing someone who remind you of them my dad has brothers who look and sound just like him so it’s hard when I do see them 

Not to mention when you see a random person and mistake them for being them it’s crazy what tricks your mind can play on you isn’t it.

my sister is close by but like you say it’s easier talking to a stranger on a forum than it is talking to family as my sister is so broken also and I just don’t want to upset her anymore than she is which is why I’m so grateful for this forum  as I’m not one for talking out loud about my emotions at all. 

I hope you are doing ok I’m always just a chat away x 

laura