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Images of watching someone you love die

ljh89
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I’m really struggling to understand death 

why is all I keep asking my self why is my dad of just 55yrs young no longer here and the answer is because of cancer 

we found out my dad had lung cancer on 16th November 2022 by October it had spread to his brain by January 5th we had to say goodbye 

my heart is just so broken 

we sat by his side that very night when the nurse told us he wouldn’t make it to the morning 

we held his hand told him how much we love him and watched him take his last breath (this is the part I struggle with most nights as I close my eyes I cry myself to sleep as this is the image I see like re watching my dad take his final breaths 

its almost a year now that we found out and I still really struggle with this and still cry most nights and see dad taking his last breath 

I’m exhausted emotionally drained and just really miss my dad being at the other end of the phone.   

There’s a chance no one will ever respond to this post but it has help me express my feelings in a way I find unable to in person ️

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    I no how you feel 

    my dad was fit and healthy what all started with a sore back 

    we was told he had lung cancer that had spread he died 4 weeks later 

    I’m struggling so bad life can be so cruel

    if I’m honest it has processed with me yet that my dad has gone I still feel like he’s going to walk threw the door 

    I hope it gets easier for me it’s only been 7 weeks 

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    Thank you for your response it means a lot reaching out    My dad was healthy too was only 55 just makes no sense does it how it can just take you like that.    Hope you start to feel a bit stronger soon but it will take time it’s almost a year for me on the 5th January 

    but next month would be my dads birthday then our first Christmas without him just really hits hard.   

    Feel free to talk on here anytime you would like ️ sending love you way. X.   Laura 

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    Thank you for your response it means a lot reaching out    My dad was healthy too was only 55 just makes no sense does it how it can just take you like that.    Hope you start to feel a bit stronger soon but it will take time it’s almost a year for me on the 5th January 

    but next month would be my dads birthday then our first Christmas without him just really hits hard.   

    Feel free to talk on here anytime you would like ️ sending love you way. X.   Laura 

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