Hello, I was moved by your post. My husband is terminally ill and I have two young children. I know your daughter must bring great joy and reason to carry on. And I know that you continue to do that for Kay. But I also guess that grief has been difficult inbetween work, caring for such a young child, protecting others, swallowing your emotions etc. I am not the expert on this but I imagine two years is a particularly difficult moment in the process. People are probably no longer checking in. There may be pressure to move on. But you have to do it your way. When I am in your position now, I imagine I will benefit from attending groups with other bereaved people. It doesn't have to be therapy but could be social groups. Organisations that bring dads together might be particularly helpful. I think Meet-Up is a good place to start looking. And I have just been reading about something called The Loss Foundation that has online sessions as well as face-to-face and social events like a comedy night. 
Thinking of you. 

Thank you so much for your reply. I'm so sorry to hear about your husband, anytime you'd like to talk please feel free. 

I've read a few responses and although I know the pain and memories will never go, it's good to know there's continued support out there through all scenarios without sounding insensitive. I've also got 3 other children from a previous marriage who don't see there mum, and Kay was the brightness and new start which makes it hard for me even more so. I struggle to hide emotions and feel I've got to hide away from them because I don't want negativity seen by my older children so this amongst other reasons is why I e reached out on here. I have no family myself so I find it hard to talk about me and put myself first and I'm genuinely grateful for your response. 

Thank you so much for your reply. I'm so sorry to hear about your husband, anytime you'd like to talk please feel free. 

I've read a few responses and although I know the pain and memories will never go, it's good to know there's continued support out there through all scenarios without sounding insensitive. I've also got 3 other children from a previous marriage who don't see there mum, and Kay was the brightness and new start which makes it hard for me even more so. I struggle to hide emotions and feel I've got to hide away from them because I don't want negativity seen by my older children so this amongst other reasons is why I e reached out on here. I have no family myself so I find it hard to talk about me and put myself first and I'm genuinely grateful for your response.