My Mum died recently. Cancer had spread to her lungs and her treatment was withdrawn. Within a month she was dead. She was in so much pain for the last 3 weeks of her life.
I keep getting flashbacks to her last day. She was on sp much pain. She was in a hospice but it was overnight and staff took so long to top her pain relief. Over an hour and a half at one point. She was throwing herself out of bed trying to get away. I had to physically restrain her. I don't know how she had the strength. She was drenched in sweat, in clear unmanageable pain. She didn't die with dignity and it haunts me. I don't know if I can cope with the intrusive memories for much longer.
