My dad lost his long fight with cancer yesterday. Even though the fight was long the end was quick he spent Sunday at a wedding and gone on Monday. I was lucky enough to have been there by chance, I even washed and dressed his body for the undertakers. I of course cried, but I feel like I should be worse than I am, I thought I wouldn't be able to drag myself out of bed today but I got up and cleaned and sorted my kids and went about my normal routine. My family have broken down and had panic attacks and I feel like I should have too. My dad was young, he was my best friend, we was so close. I feel unbelievable guilt for feeling like I should be crying all day especially where it's so new. Could I be in shock? I just feel weird instead
